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There's something about you..
There's something about you.. Something that draws me to you.. I can't explain what It is.. only what it does.. It pulls me to go with you wherever you go whenever we're together.. It makes me follow your every command no matter how reluctant i feel at first.. Its made me embarrass myself in public.. Its made me promise you things I know i shouldn't have.. Its made me hold you tight in your sleep and wake up every time you've shifted.. Its drawn me to stoke your hair while you sleep in my lap during a very boring movie.. It made me try to kiss you that night even though it was way too late.. It made me ask you out even though I knew you didn't have a real 'like' for me.. Its made me look at you and admire your every feature.. Its made me want to hug you and never let go.. Its made me bold enough to adk my dad to take me over to your place.. Its made me try to hold myself in the middle of the night until I felt like I was to the point of my bladder bursting just so I wouldn't move too much and wake you.. Its made me feel like you were the most innocent thing in the universe when you woke up and asked me where I was going.. Its made me think about you quite a bit more than I should.. Its made you oh so special to me in ways you will never know.. Its made me walk on pins and needles just so i won't seem like a screw-up in your eyes(when there's no light I see your eyes..).. Its also made me too cautious where I'd wonder if something was wrong between us when you have better things to think about than me and my need for attention.. Its made me just wish I could read your mind sometimes to just find out all those little secrets you keep hidden from the world.. Its made me worry and care about you oh so very much.. Its made me insanely clumsy and awkward around you.. Its probably the reason you don't like me as I like you.. I think you've realized it though, just a bit.. Its made you notice me looking, not staring though, just a curious glance.. Its made me a complete idiot and i hope it doesn't ruin our friendship.. It is the reason I let you hang up on me and talk s**t about the people I care about and bash parts of my life.. Its the reason I write this at 2:30 in the morning because It is all I can think about.. You're all I can think about.. If you ever read this.. Just try not to be weirded out.. It made me do it.. The difference between It and the nightmares are that the nightmares may not be able to get me when I'm awake but I can never escape It.. It kills me and there's nothing I can do about It..
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