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"My love is deeper, tighter, sweeter, higher, flyy-er. Didn't you know this? Or didn't you notice?" -Jill Scott

Yeah, you noticed. You noticed for a long time. You just don't care anymore. You have him now. He is your all and your everything. He is your meal and I'm just that side of fries getting old and cold sitting on the counter. You don't love me anymore. I guess it was bound to happen eventually. Eh. I deserve it. I've ******** up so much s**t. I really wish I could have been better for you. But even then I still wouldn't be able to compete with him. But at least then... I wouldn't have opened up the door for you to walk out of and maybe you would have never known. I hope that one day, not for myself, but for you, that I find someone to give me something as pure as you and he have. That way I can leave you alone... No one cares about how I feel about you except me. My friends have stopped helping and you've stopped loving... I just sit here thinking about you but the thoughts only bounce back off of an invisible barrier of your love for him surrounding your mind which blocks any chance of you thinking about me too...
The simple fact is.. I need you. But I still sit here alone and cold on this counter like your side order when you'll need me. But the fact is, you've wanted to throw me away for a time now. You're just trying to figure out how...