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I know I need you
I always will
just your voice brings me comfort
but i'm always making you upset. making you cry. making you hurt yourself. i did something bad the other day... something i thought i was finally done doing. i know i am at fault for most of the sadness in your life... and though taking it out on myself physically doesn't help... i feel that i deserve it. I know I deserve the worst things in the world. I hope I find someone who I finally feel good about giving my whole heart to and I want them to break it into 1000 pieces... just for you. I've hurt you so much. And your sister is right. People may deserve 2nd chances but I don't deserve 20.. I know I will always need you but I've decided to do the best for you because its taken me a year to finally realize, the hard way, that....
...you don't need me.