Desperate broken whispers inside my head replay,
I write words to somehow cast them all away.
For it's all I can do to simply mask my lie,
choke back tears so I will not cry.
Then I can smile with you in laughter,
pretending I know not of what is after.
After you've walked away with my smile,
acid tears fall in waves so vile.
Yet because I care you will not see,
the tears hidden in my jealousy.
I conceal the pain so you won't know,
still to much for me to carry though.
For I feel so empty and lonely inside,
immense aggression difficult to hide.
So I hold it all in so you won't learn,
how they set the fire to watch me burn.
Yet strange how the voices call for you alone,
for I had believed them all to be stone.
Still this emotion should've been unspoken,
now you know exactly how far I'm broken.
For no one desires a shattered little heart,
so all the truth does is tear me apart.
For I know the you won't ever care for me,
idiotic to wish my dream a reality.
I am a lost and unbeeautiful creature,
forced to obey orders of her teacher.
Teacher of rain and agony,
to simply despise in deep envy.
My submissive twisted little soul,
seems a razor my only control.
And even though you asked me to give it end,
somehow they make it simpler to pretend.
It's a quiet way to express things I can not say,
because more pain comes again each and every day.
So the pain will slowly die as I tear my fragile flesh,
then there's room for new emotions while the wound is fresh.
I write words to somehow cast them all away.
For it's all I can do to simply mask my lie,
choke back tears so I will not cry.
Then I can smile with you in laughter,
pretending I know not of what is after.
After you've walked away with my smile,
acid tears fall in waves so vile.
Yet because I care you will not see,
the tears hidden in my jealousy.
I conceal the pain so you won't know,
still to much for me to carry though.
For I feel so empty and lonely inside,
immense aggression difficult to hide.
So I hold it all in so you won't learn,
how they set the fire to watch me burn.
Yet strange how the voices call for you alone,
for I had believed them all to be stone.
Still this emotion should've been unspoken,
now you know exactly how far I'm broken.
For no one desires a shattered little heart,
so all the truth does is tear me apart.
For I know the you won't ever care for me,
idiotic to wish my dream a reality.
I am a lost and unbeeautiful creature,
forced to obey orders of her teacher.
Teacher of rain and agony,
to simply despise in deep envy.
My submissive twisted little soul,
seems a razor my only control.
And even though you asked me to give it end,
somehow they make it simpler to pretend.
It's a quiet way to express things I can not say,
because more pain comes again each and every day.
So the pain will slowly die as I tear my fragile flesh,
then there's room for new emotions while the wound is fresh.
