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My Past still Haunts me... Overwhelming remembrance attacks without fear memories flood my brain, reliving the past time and again no way to yell no way to escape the pain. Here I am 12 plus years and it feels like it was yesterday being attacked, being tormented, living in fear of the one who was supposed to take care. memories of nightmares playing in color like a projector that never stops over and over and over again my life keeps flashing in mind. fear takes over, stress has formed Nowhere to run and hide, For how do you run from a past that you lived that follows you home every night.

Posted by: Gasmic Bunny Style Sat Dec 27, 2008 @ 03:54pm

Gone,
Death awaiting me,
Not wanting,
But hopeing,
Not fearing,
But neutral,
I have lost the meaning,
Of the life I once knew,
Whats the point in my life now?

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Oricalcon
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Commented on: Sun Jan 18, 2009 @ 04:55am


	For you to feel pain like this, I'm sorry, to know how this came to be torments me so I know I can never undo what was done and wish that some way somehow you can forgive such a sad soul as I. I know you say you love me but I truely feel fear drives you more than you think, I'm now dreading the next time we see one amother for now I think that your feelings for me are out of fear. Even though you may not know what I am talking about I wish for you to think hard and seriously debate the road that you are wnadering and hopefully you will see the real desire behind the choice you have made. If in the end you decide to change how you are living then I will not blame you in fact I may just encourage such a thing if I see it in your best interest. I hope that one day we can move forward and not have such a dark and forboding past hanging over us.

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