Wel here it is, all in order (had to did deep for this one, note: is all major crushes, and is not goint to use actual names, but am using actual times n places, n stuff
ah,
so
highschool, that time when everythign starts to get bigger, and take up more vol, you start looking like a dude, instead of amidget, ect. ect.
the first girl i ever had a crush on, (btw, she was hot!), she rode on my bus, and i had the biggest crush on her, but she was one of those, older guy girls, and always had someone she was with, so i could never eraly stakc up to her, well, we'll call her S-1., first crush girl
anywho, a while latter, this one girl i got this crush on and became friends with, and in turn pretty much stoped hanging out w/ my old friends circle to be with, about halfway through the year, while getting the nerve to out with her, a friend of mine goes out with her, and there together for like 2 years almost., also, that friend becomes bassically best friend during that time.(i am still friends with this girl, but im not really as interested, (not only that but im not sure on her oreintation anymore, due to confirmed roumers...))we'll call her KI,
after her, there was k-2, which was like one of the coolest girls i knew, which i aslo knew from the bus..., but she was like the first girl i mentioned (only she hasnt had a kid or anything, and is still cool, i guess its pretty much just better being friends with that one, though she's supposed to be in college now, but i ahvent seen her (like a bunch of my freinds seem to be mon/wed people sad
after her, there was a few inbetween people, and one more from bus, but she is a bit off for me to date her ever, like she's cool, but she lacks the heart, and the smart.
(note: ryan likes smart and kind girls, preferebly purple, and spikey would be nice...
lol, jk jk
but kind and smart is deff a bonus
though i also tend to pick up girls that are more mysterious and dont erally know who i am at all inside, idk, i guess im just strange, or maybe i'm not one to share my feelings on things easily, since for most of my life i've been sensoring myself from my parents...
anyhow, back to girls,, so one girl, on the way that i hada small crush on was this girl, im calling G-1, and she had the coolest name, but she was totaly like this sweet girl, like farm girl sort of girl, and she was totaly shy, but totaly cute, ans seemed smart., unfortunatly she was there my 10th year but i left 11th, n came back 12th, but she was at chap 12th, so it never really worked, out, n we never erally got to know eachother.
also, at end of 10th, i ddi have a gf for about a week, but we really didnt have anything in common, so the whole making out thing was just a heat of the momment thing after the dance...
after, at excelsior during 11th i had a slight crush on a coupe of girls, but all either had gf's or werent really going to work out., so lonley year that year.
12th grade, i dont really have much, m back @ serrano, where 1/2 the people moved away, though i did have this giant crush on this awsome really tall freshmen girl, who is not only a guitar player, but a singer, and awsomeness, but she allready had a coo bf, so i waslike eh, i guess we'll be friends, n we actually had a great time in drama class, it was fun, she's deff awsome.so this one w'ell call T-1
during 12th, this one girl from my chruch is totaly interested in me, n i can tell it in her eyes, n in her smile, m like ya, she totaly diggs me. It took me a while to decide if it would work out though, since i didnt want to get into any crappy short relatioships, and she was awsome, she was funny, n cute, n flirty, n laughed at all my lame-o jokes n everything. She was a grade3 younger n was gunna grad early, but her stupid parents (dad/stepmum) were like were kicking you out because we got a family, and we dont really care about you cause you a bunch of extra weight, so they ship her back up to anderson in no cal (12 hour drive away, n im like wft, perfect girl is moved away, n she's like ah, i cant handle being away, so we decide it's best to part, thou i still talk to her n stuff (not as much a i shoudh thou), but it really ducked how it ended, cause we still loved eachother, but love is not all it takes to make a relatioship work, it takes time, n effort, and being together, if you are apart, is it really fair to keep someone trapped to themselves forever, i dont personally think so...girl H-1
right now, i have a coupleof crushes, 1 is on a girl from drama class last year, who is cute smart n funny, but she has classes @ college on mon n wed(opposite from me, so it pretty much sux(though i might start going on wed to study, n to hang out w/ her ninja we'll call this K-2, only con's- she's a pirate, n i'm a ninja...
others- possibly my soon to be cousin (my aunt is remarring, and cousin is supposed to be awsome, so i'm like shweet
other's- idk,
maybe i'llmake myself a shirt
-Hi I'm ryan, and single, wanna get treated to some foodz @ a resturante?
lol
i guess, the things i look for in girls
surprised ldability (could i see getting old w/ them
:un a** ness- how stubborn are they, and how flexible they are
:cute ness- i'm a big fan of the face, idk why, but its like, cute face=win
:cute eyes
:smart-im not big into girls that you have to explain jokes to, im not like i wanna phd girl, but atleast someone who is witty
:single- im not into group deals rolleyes
:randomness- someone who sint one track all the time, or someone that is totaly predictable
:ninja- its a plus, but not always
surprised ne that isoutgoing (idk why, but im attacted to extroverts, even though i'm mostly introverted ninja )
razz OSITIVENESS- srsly i hate people that are negative all teh time, the ones that are like, your glass is not half, empty, your glass is totaly empty, and since it is you'r going to die, and the sky is going to fall on us all, killing everyone, This is the end, ahhh *while running in circles*
srsly, a positive attitude and a optimistic personality is a big win in my book.
:im sure there's other things, but here's some of them at least
