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Well, the movies plan was a bust. Turns out mine and my bf's ride decided to go to the movies with his other friends. (go figure) Then, bloodlust went to the movies with her family so everything just fell completely apart at the last minute. *sigh* What hurts the most is that I had built myself up so much on the fact that I was gonna see him today...and in the end, that didn't happen. It doesn't help that I rarely see him outside of school because his mom always works, his dad's never home, and my family doesn't have a car, so we have no way of going anywhere since he lives in a place where public transportation isn't easily accessible. Then my mom's weird about me having a bf, so she doesn't help our cause at all. So, as you can see, it meant a lot that we'd be going somewhere together today...but all that went to hell. Who knows when an opportunity like that will present itself again? Could be tomorrow....could be never....all I know is now I can't stop crying cuz I won't be able to see him 'til Monday and even then I won't spend as much time with him as I'd usually try to do (depending on whether it's an A or B day) cuz I have to take a stupid AP test and then I have an interview for a scholarship at 1:15, pretty much right after the effin' test. How is it that one moment you can be extremely happy and the next you're utterly miserable and feel as if you're on the brink of death? It's completely ridiculous in my opinion... but that's life for ya...*sigh* Is there no way to ease this pain that has presented itself from this gaping hole in me?