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"Betrayal . . ."

Betrayal leaves you in the dark . . .
You wonder why you did it . . .
But you know why you did . . .
You just don't want to admit it . . .
Because you know they were right . . .
All along . . .

"But They Didn't"
I thought they saw me
But they didn't
I thought they cared
But they didn't
I thought they loved me
But they didn't
I thought they'd stop me
But they didn't
I thought we were friends
But they didn't
I know why I did it
But they didn't

"Why do i feel so alone"
People say they're my friends
People say i can talk to them
People say this but they also say that
People say one thing
Then they say another
If people say i can talk to them
Then why do i feel so alone

"My Little Little Candle"
My little little candle
It burns for my love
My little little candle is out
Is my love out too?

“A Winter Dream”
Like little white angels from up above,
The angels keep falling gently past us.
I hold his hand with all my tender love,
As the snow all around starts to fluoresce.

Whilst the angels start to stick to our hair,
We begin to walk down that snowy path.
Whistles softly goes the cold winter air.
Shivering next to him in this cold bath.

Reaching the end of that endless pathway,
We look at each other with affection.
Happily together this winter day,
Stopping, staring as if in perfection.

We both lean in forward as our lips touch.
Now you know we are in love, so much.

“Butterfly Flood”
See the beautiful crimson butterflies.
How they mask their evil with their beauty.
They begin to color the sky as they fly high,
Coloring the sky crimson and sooty.

Taking the lives of all of those outside.
Not knowing what it is they are harming.
Their power and beauty made good collide.
The good not knowing that they are converting.

The butterflies’ secret, wings of knives.
Like the butterflies, good becomes evil.
As death, the butterflies take some strong lives.
No more could good think of a plan retrieval.

All that remains is the darkness and blood.
Just after the pleasing butterfly flood.

"Together Forever"
I walk and search,
To find that one person.
That person I can care for.
I thought it was you,
When I found you hiding,
But then I lost you.
So I searched again.
I kept finding you,
hiding in that same spot,
But you would always run away.
Then one day I thought I found someone else.
Yet again I found out it was only you.
So i keep trying to find someone new,
But all I can find is you.
Now I in this empty, vast forest,
That should be filled with all sorts of life,
I keep searching for someone.
Hoping its not you,
But in my heart,
I want it to be you,
And I want you to stay.
So please when I find you again in this deep, dark forest,
Stay here by my side,
So we can be together.
Together Forever.

"Remembering that Day"
That day,
When we were walking alone,
I remember there was rain,
Falling hard on my face,
And yours. While holding you tight in my arms.
Never wanting to let go.

But you made me let go.
On that very horrible day.
When you just jumped out of my arms.
Out there you left me alone,
Having the rain fall on only my face,
Out there, you left me standing in the rain.

Now I hate being in the rain,
Because you had to let me go
But only alone in the rain is what i like with the burning tears falling down my face
Because i'm rememberig that most saddened day.
Now i sit and cry in my room alone
Thinking about you here in my arms.

Now i hold your present tightly in my arms,
While on the roof patters the rain,
And now I wish I wasn't alone.
Remembering how you had to go.
Forever I will hate that day.
Just remembering your face.

The tears start to fall harder down my face,
Because i remember your not in my arms.
Now i remember us together before that dreadful day.
Making mr cry like the rain
On that day. Those tears i want to go
Just like you did when you left me alone

But now i like being alone
Because now I only remember your face
And they way we let each other go.
Now and forever nothing will be in these arms
Because i remember the rain
On that very awful day.

Still holding your present in my arms.
And yes still pattering on the roof is the rain,
Falling as hard as my tears on that truly frightful day.

UNTITLED
On this night i leave you a note.
As i leave on this horrible night.
For this poison there is no antidote
If you guess you may not be right.

Just leave me to be at peace.
So i can sit and think here in the dark.
Ripping my brain apart piece by piece.
Try to stop me you may see the mark.

The mark of the forbidden doom.
That i had seen not so long ago.
While i was just sitting in my room.
Watching all of the drops of snow.

Falling into the darkness of life.
That darkness is my life's knife!

"I'm Sorry"
I just wanted to say i'm sorry,
And you don't have to worry.
Just leave me here in a hurry.
At least i am glad that i am a furry.

I'm sorry for everything i did.
I know its not meant to be hid,
But now's not the time to bid.
Why couldn't this have been forbid?

I'm sorry for hurting you.
Sorry for making you black and blue.
Sorry for when i actually knew.
Sorry for not showing you through.

Staring into your eyes bright and starry.
All i wanted to say was i'm sorry.

"Feeling Used"
When you are sad,
I feel all your pain.
It makes me feel so bad.
Knowing that you can't gain,
Can't gain any respect,
Any respect from the world.
You feel like a speck,
A speck being hurled.
Hurled around like a bug,
A bug being abused,
Abused like a drug,
I know your feeling used.

"I Can't Stop"
Thinking is pretty much all I do
It is my so called addiction.
As I think . . . I grow silent
Nevert stopping . . . always going on
It never stops it never wants to stop
So why should I try to stop it
If it is all that I really do . . .
Now all i ask . . . is for you to stop
Just stop . . . trying to stop me
You should know its not going to work
Then why do you continue . . .
Continue . . . to stop my thoughts
They don't hurt me . . . but . . .
But they will hurt you . . .
For trying to stop them.

"Be With You"
What do I think about now
I thought we were perfect together
Then you told me . . .
I was happy at first . . . but . . .
My mind tried keeping me from the truth
I know we are meant to be
But my mind . . . just doesn't . . .
Know any better . . .
Now all I want . . . is to be with you
Forever and always . . .
Like I've said before I'm never letting go
You are . . . the one I've always wanted
So you really are . . . all I need . . .
It's just my mind says you aren't
But I know you are . . .
So here is what i have to say
I love you . . . now and always
I'm never letting go and . . .
All I want to do . . .
Is be with you . . . *tears up*

"Why do i do those things"
Why do i do all those things for you to see
When i know you don't care about me
Why do i do all those things just for you
When you know you make me feel blue
Why do i do all those things
While in my head your name just rings
Why . . . why . . . is that the only question you know
Its because in my eyes you just glow
Its because i only need thee
but its obvious you just don't agree
Can't you see all of this is true
All i ever needed was you
We don't have to be kings
Just do our things
I guess we should just take it slow
All i hope is that you don't go
Because you had me at hello
There is nothing else i can think of
except all i gave to you was my love . . .
That is why i do those things I do

What if it happened?
What if that thing happened in real life?
But you said that you wouldn't get mad.
I wonder would that make you mad or sad?
To you this would probably feel just like that knife.

Just that knife touching up against your skin.
I wish that i had never of done that.
My tears fall as the sound of spat. (spat means like falling rain)
I'm sorry for causing that horrible sin.

Now I sit here and all I do is cry.
I am afraid to tell you about it.
All I want to do is just quit.
Because this pain makes me die.

So I'm sorry for this pain I'm causing.
Don't let me make your events have a pausing.