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i have absolutely no luck wit guys
either im just a friend....
or like a sister.....
or a cousin.....
or we've been friends so long that they feel foolish datin me....

or worst i finally get a guy n it turns out he's a b*****d.....
wit a girlfriend.....
or two...
or three.....

or he has a wife n kids (that was not fun findin that out...)

or even worst i find a guy who is da s**t...
i finally let my defenses down...
i fall in love n i mean hard....
i contemplate marryin this man....
n he says he loves me but all of a sudden things change....

all cuz im not up to his ugly a** roommate standards of wat level i should b on....
so all becuz im not perfectly beautiful n dumb....
all becuz im a smartass n his roommate doesn't like me...
this wonderful man started actin weird...

cancellin times when we're suppose to hang out...
callin less...
textin less...

yeah he has two jobs, one of which is bein a firefighter.....
so i no he's busy....
but is he really that busy....
or is he just fadin away from me?