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Nail60 (11:20:47 PM): You called for me?
LilpupLRH (11:21:48 PM): Si senor
LilpupLRH (11:21:52 PM): I was curious
LilpupLRH (11:22:00 PM): Like, why exactly do you despise Alison so?
Nail60 (11:21:48 PM): I don't actually. XD
LilpupLRH (11:22:38 PM): Orly?
Nail60 (11:22:11 PM): I don't exactly like her, but I don't dislike her. XD
Nail60 (11:22:19 PM): It's just fun to play along. XP
Nail60 (11:22:43 PM): So, you know best, what song to get from I tunes with the 50$ I have for it?
LilpupLRH (11:23:45 PM): Hmmmm.
LilpupLRH (11:23:50 PM): What're you in the mood for?
Nail60 (11:24:00 PM): Um... I think you sort of know my tast. Mood doesn't matter. The songs are permenent my moods aren't.
LilpupLRH (11:25:11 PM): Ahahaha I love it when you say stuff like that
LilpupLRH (11:25:12 PM): okay hold on
Nail60 (11:24:51 PM): XD
LilpupLRH (11:26:22 PM): Well, I need moods to categorize for myself
Nail60 (11:25:44 PM): lol
Nail60 (11:25:46 PM): sorry...
Nail60 (11:25:48 PM): DX
Nail60 (11:25:51 PM): Um...
LilpupLRH (11:26:41 PM): So, for the slower s**t, I suggest World Waits For You by Son Volt
LilpupLRH (11:26:44 PM): not the reprise version
LilpupLRH (11:27:17 PM): Okay ******** moods
LilpupLRH (11:27:30 PM): Fight Academy Songs by Mission of Burma
Nail60 (11:26:57 PM): Ok. baught wwfy
LilpupLRH (11:28:01 PM): The Unforgiven by Metallica
LilpupLRH (11:28:21 PM): Thru the Eyes of Ruby by The Smashing Pumpkins
LilpupLRH (11:28:45 PM): London Calling by The Clash
LilpupLRH (11:30:02 PM): Optimistic by Radiohead
LilpupLRH (11:30:46 PM): Moon Over Marin by the Dead Kennedys
Nail60 (11:30:04 PM): Thru the Eyes of Ruby is only availabe if you buy the album. is the album goo?
Nail60 (11:30:08 PM): d
LilpupLRH (11:31:05 PM): Uhh, yeah I like it, but I don't know if you will.
LilpupLRH (11:31:11 PM): However, if you want, go for it
Nail60 (11:30:43 PM): meh. Flip a coin for me. XP
Nail60 (11:31:03 PM): I have 35$ left
LilpupLRH (11:31:54 PM): What the hell?
Nail60 (11:31:23 PM): lol I already spent some of it
LilpupLRH (11:32:09 PM): Ohh.
LilpupLRH (11:32:11 PM): Hahahah.
LilpupLRH (11:32:24 PM): Okay uhhh...The album isn't uppity
Nail60 (11:31:44 PM): David bowies best and some other songs
LilpupLRH (11:32:30 PM): It's kind of angry but some of it's sad
Nail60 (11:31:56 PM): oh...
LilpupLRH (11:32:44 PM): Yeah hah.
Nail60 (11:32:05 PM): I'll pass I guess just because
LilpupLRH (11:32:56 PM): Yeah I don't blame yu
LilpupLRH (11:32:58 PM): lets seeeee
LilpupLRH (11:33:09 PM): Winnebago Warrior by Dead Kennedys too
LilpupLRH (11:33:35 PM): it'll be fun to see if you like the thrash of it hahah
Nail60 (11:33:30 PM): Winnebago Warrior by Dead Kennedys too not bye Mojo Nixon?
Nail60 (11:33:47 PM): by*
LilpupLRH (11:34:37 PM): Right
LilpupLRH (11:34:41 PM): Dead KEnnecys
LilpupLRH (11:34:44 PM): *Dead Kennedys
Nail60 (11:34:09 PM): I tunes doesn't have it than
Nail60 (11:34:14 PM): then*
LilpupLRH (11:35:24 PM): ******** iTunes
LilpupLRH (11:35:40 PM): Uhhh..Okay try All The Negatives Have Been Destroyed by Spoon
LilpupLRH (11:35:50 PM): see if you like that and then tell me because that whole album is like that
Nail60 (11:35:12 PM): Looks like they don't do the dead kennedys
LilpupLRH (11:36:06 PM): They probably didn't sell out yet
Nail60 (11:35:29 PM): yep...
LilpupLRH (11:36:36 PM): Uhhh.. They probably don't have One Reason but you can try The End Never Mattered by One Reason anyway
LilpupLRH (11:37:11 PM): Have you gotten any of it yet?
Nail60 (11:36:38 PM): yeah.
LilpupLRH (11:37:29 PM): Listened to any of it?
LilpupLRH (11:37:34 PM): The first stuff might be too slow
Nail60 (11:36:55 PM): No lol
Nail60 (11:37:05 PM): I'm gonna listen to it all tomorrow XD
Nail60 (11:37:16 PM): I'm excited. My listen to it when i go to bed.
LilpupLRH (11:38:03 PM): Ahhh you must listen to it!
LilpupLRH (11:38:11 PM): I have to know if I'm giving you good suggestions
LilpupLRH (11:38:23 PM): I don't want you to blow like 456356 dollars on music you dont even like
Nail60 (11:37:54 PM): They didn't have the last one you said.
LilpupLRH (11:38:47 PM): I'm not surprised
Nail60 (11:38:08 PM): yeah...
LilpupLRH (11:38:51 PM): They're pretty underground
Nail60 (11:39:08 PM): Ok. I remembered one I needed to get.
Nail60 (11:39:25 PM): The lead singing in sum 41 looks retarded. XD
Nail60 (11:39:31 PM): *singer
LilpupLRH (11:41:08 PM): Yes he does.
Nail60 (11:40:43 PM): XP Do you have an I pod yet?
Nail60 (11:40:46 PM): XP
LilpupLRH (11:41:40 PM): Yesssss.
LilpupLRH (11:41:42 PM): I'm so glad
Nail60 (11:41:12 PM): ZEveryone getz one eventualy.
LilpupLRH (11:42:08 PM): They're too efficient.
LilpupLRH (11:42:11 PM): I feel kind of guitly
LilpupLRH (11:42:15 PM): *guilty
LilpupLRH (11:43:25 PM): Who Do You Think? by Interpol is such a fun song
Nail60 (11:42:43 PM): That sucks. I think its all right in the end.
LilpupLRH (11:43:35 PM): I hope you're right
LilpupLRH (11:43:50 PM): I need to be re-talked out of being unafraid of death
LilpupLRH (11:43:59 PM): that didn't make anyt sense
LilpupLRH (11:44:09 PM): basically I'm afraid of death again and I hate it
Nail60 (11:43:29 PM): lol
Nail60 (11:43:30 PM): it did
Nail60 (11:43:35 PM): ^_^
Nail60 (11:43:51 PM): You don't need to worry about it yet.
LilpupLRH (11:44:49 PM): Don't say that.
Nail60 (11:44:42 PM): Why not?
Nail60 (11:45:02 PM): Because it can happen any time and that is also scary?
LilpupLRH (11:45:49 PM): Yes.
Nail60 (11:45:46 PM): No one should fear their own death. Only that of others.
Nail60 (11:45:58 PM): And even then they should let go of anyone thwey fear to lose. XD jk
Nail60 (11:46:09 PM): *nerds off*
LilpupLRH (11:47:03 PM): No no no continue haha
LilpupLRH (11:47:08 PM): I want to hear more
Nail60 (11:46:30 PM): I like the one by interpol
Nail60 (11:46:52 PM): I was quoting starwars for a second ther.
Nail60 (11:46:56 PM): ther
Nail60 (11:46:57 PM): XP
LilpupLRH (11:47:47 PM): Wait, which one by Interpol
Nail60 (11:47:20 PM): oh um... who do you thinkl
LilpupLRH (11:48:17 PM): Yes, it's a good one
LilpupLRH (11:48:19 PM): catchy
Nail60 (11:47:55 PM): I like almost everything you like just so you know. ^_^
Nail60 (11:48:26 PM): I have a wide palet.
LilpupLRH (11:49:27 PM): Hahah, I'm glad.
Nail60 (11:53:24 PM): Anyway
LilpupLRH (11:54:28 PM): When I die, I'm doing it myself.
Nail60 (11:53:53 PM): Half the songs you listed weren't there. Hold on, there are a few others I need.
Nail60 (11:54:00 PM): Oh god...
LilpupLRH (11:54:44 PM): Mkay.
Nail60 (11:54:04 PM): not this again
Nail60 (11:54:07 PM): DX
LilpupLRH (11:55:10 PM): Well I'm not serious this time
LilpupLRH (11:55:19 PM): I'm just freaked the ******** out about dying
Nail60 (11:54:42 PM): lol
Nail60 (11:54:44 PM): Ok'
Nail60 (11:54:54 PM): Theres not much wrong with that I guess.
Nail60 (11:55:27 PM): Just got go killing every suspicious looking person you see.
LilpupLRH (11:56:20 PM): I could die by accident.
LilpupLRH (11:56:26 PM): At least murder is interesting
Nail60 (11:55:47 PM): And if you do end up feeling that need... go to the doctewr imediately
Nail60 (11:56:06 PM): doctewr!!!!
Nail60 (11:56:24 PM): Murder would be exciting i guess...
Nail60 (11:56:36 PM): It could be crappy.
Nail60 (11:56:49 PM): Like a sniper err something would be pretty boring.
LilpupLRH (12:00:29 AM): Woahwoahwoah
LilpupLRH (12:00:36 AM): why did Anne Crick make you cry?
Nail60 (12:00:47 AM): When?
LilpupLRH (12:01:41 AM): There's been more than one time?
Nail60 (12:01:08 AM): Well a little...
Nail60 (12:01:26 AM): Begining of the year and her party last year. I felt a loving for her. DX
LilpupLRH (12:02:17 AM): Damn.
LilpupLRH (12:02:46 AM): That's pretty ad
Nail60 (12:02:21 AM): ad
LilpupLRH (12:04:11 AM): *bad
LilpupLRH (12:04:16 AM): What with the whole lesbian thing
Nail60 (12:08:16 AM): lol
Nail60 (12:08:19 AM): Yeah
Nail60 (12:13:28 AM): Besides that. Who have you liked of late?
LilpupLRH (12:14:20 AM): what?
Nail60 (12:13:48 AM): Who havew you liked lately
Nail60 (12:14:08 AM): The letter "W" has been getting in my way today.
LilpupLRH (12:15:03 AM): I see.
LilpupLRH (12:15:08 AM): Uhhh...I don't know
Nail60 (12:14:35 AM): of late is old style lately
LilpupLRH (12:15:35 AM): Yeah, I figured but didn't really feel like being wrong
Nail60 (12:15:33 AM): haha oh leah. Always afraid of failier
LilpupLRH (12:16:30 AM): hahahah yeah pretty much
LilpupLRH (12:16:36 AM): oh Sebrand, just as bad as me
LilpupLRH (12:16:44 AM): but in different ways
Nail60 (12:17:22 AM): What do you speek of now? XD
LilpupLRH (12:18:36 AM): Nevermiiiiind
LilpupLRH (12:18:40 AM): /dodging question
Nail60 (12:18:15 AM): Hey. I can take it!!!
Nail60 (12:18:32 AM): It's good to know your fualts.
Nail60 (12:20:35 AM): hello? Come on...
LilpupLRH (12:21:27 AM): What, YOUR faults?
Nail60 (12:20:53 AM): Yes those.
LilpupLRH (12:21:53 AM): you seem like you're a lot like me in that you really don't want to fail.
Nail60 (12:21:13 AM): I use second person to describe people in jeneral
Nail60 (12:21:16 AM): g*
Nail60 (12:21:38 AM): I want to be succesful in the long run.
Nail60 (12:21:49 AM): but I don't mind failing at the small things
Nail60 (12:21:57 AM): But your right
LilpupLRH (12:22:49 AM): You seem like a perfectionist, to some extent, and you're mildly self-destructive because sometimes, you think what you do or say is stupid
Nail60 (12:22:19 AM): yes
LilpupLRH (12:23:03 AM): and, you're easily frustrated by people that don't understand you
Nail60 (12:22:31 AM): well... yeah.
Nail60 (12:22:39 AM): not always?
LilpupLRH (12:23:43 AM): or by the fact that sometimes, you can't explain your feelings to the extent that someone else needs you to, which results in frustration on behalf of yourself and directed towards the other person
LilpupLRH (12:23:54 AM): understandably so
Nail60 (12:23:12 AM): no
Nail60 (12:24:06 AM): That part I don't mind. I don't dislike people that won't understand my feeling just like that but I do enjoy it when people do.
Nail60 (12:24:17 AM): most people are like that though.
LilpupLRH (12:25:14 AM): Yeh, I'm like that
Nail60 (12:25:10 AM): I like it when poeple at least try to understand of truely think they do.
Nail60 (12:25:27 AM): When they don't even get a hint though it's sort of sad.
LilpupLRH (12:26:46 AM): Yeah I agree.
LilpupLRH (12:27:02 AM): But, other than that, I don't see major flaws in you
LilpupLRH (12:27:35 AM): Sometimes you come off as shallow to people who don't understand your humor, but it's not difficult to see that you're not shallow at all once you talk to you
LilpupLRH (12:27:44 AM): it takes like, two seconds to see that you're not a shallow person
Nail60 (12:27:28 AM): Thanks!
Nail60 (12:28:08 AM): Sometimes I don't care about acting shallow though. Sometimes it's just a nice way to enjoy life.
Nail60 (12:28:12 AM): You know?
LilpupLRH (12:29:05 AM): Yeah, I do know
LilpupLRH (12:29:22 AM): I like coming off as shallow sometimes, I like not having to think
Nail60 (12:28:43 AM): It's nice to just not over annalize a situaltion before making a move every now and then
LilpupLRH (12:29:30 AM): not worrying
LilpupLRH (12:29:31 AM): yes
Nail60 (12:29:50 AM): But sometimes I can't not over annalize. And then when I finnaly do move, I think through the plan fastter than i can move through it.
LilpupLRH (12:30:43 AM): Sebrand, not to get sentimental but I'm so glad we're friends
Nail60 (12:30:03 AM): and I stumble
Nail60 (12:30:10 AM): Yeah
Nail60 (12:30:13 AM): Same her
Nail60 (12:31:14 AM): any way, XP, that's why I enjoy talking via the enternet more at times. It's harder to stumble and normaly I can weight as long as i want to think.
LilpupLRH (12:32:32 AM): Yeah, and you can give the person an excuse
LilpupLRH (12:32:45 AM): Like, if you didn't know what to say to something you can sit there and think about it
LilpupLRH (12:32:56 AM): and then say, like, oh I had to go feed my dog
Nail60 (12:32:13 AM): yeah
Nail60 (12:32:19 AM): XD
Nail60 (12:32:25 AM): but I never do that. XP
Nail60 (12:33:08 AM): normaly they have soemthing else to do while they wate and normaly assume I had something else to do aswell so there no need to make something up. ^_^
Nail60 (12:38:35 AM): I love solf bathrobes.
LilpupLRH (12:54:45 AM): Me too.
LilpupLRH (12:54:50 AM): Although I never use them
LilpupLRH (12:54:54 AM): now, what are my flaws
LilpupLRH (12:54:58 AM): /Do I want to know
Nail60 (12:54:53 AM): Um... We sorta when over some of those as we whent over mine.
Nail60 (12:56:13 AM): I suppose... You feel you need to be around people when ever possible. You feel like your ... tell me, when you arn't submerged in a social life.
Nail60 (12:57:23 AM): But I don't think you relize you don't need that. But now you feel like your to deep you surface and you fear having to start over.
Nail60 (12:57:30 AM): again.
Nail60 (12:59:32 AM): But you know the feeling of not having a social life. That nagging in the back of you mind asking what are you doing? Sitting here? what? weisting your time? You need to do something productuive I guess. I'm not sure if I said that all right.
LilpupLRH (1:00:50 AM): Yeah. Yeah, you're definitley right about not wasting my time
LilpupLRH (1:01:06 AM): I try to always be doing something
LilpupLRH (1:01:27 AM): As for the fearing being alone thing, yes, I do osmetimes hate being alone
LilpupLRH (1:01:39 AM): It does freak me out sometimes, it used to freak me out all the time
LilpupLRH (1:01:47 AM): but lately, I think I'm okay with being alone
LilpupLRH (1:01:54 AM): when I need to be, that is
Nail60 (1:01:15 AM): It's not entirely a fault though. Just that is freaks you out as you pu it.
LilpupLRH (1:02:14 AM): Yes.
LilpupLRH (1:02:46 AM): I think a fault of mine is that I freak out about people leaving me.
Nail60 (1:02:08 AM): (The nose peice of my glasses in missing the screw so it keeps falling out...)
Nail60 (1:02:14 AM): yeah
LilpupLRH (1:03:25 AM): It sounds cliche but I'm seeing a pattern of being scared of people loving me and then ditching me and sometimes I think I push people away in fear of that.
Nail60 (1:02:48 AM): It's a fear many people have and normaly try to move on enstead. But...
LilpupLRH (1:03:41 AM): Legitimately, not in that "oh this is the emo thing to say so I'll say it"
Nail60 (1:03:10 AM): lol
Nail60 (1:03:13 AM): yeah
LilpupLRH (1:04:08 AM): Like, I really don't want to lose my friends and whenever it happens, it really feels like my fault
LilpupLRH (1:04:09 AM): ahaha
LilpupLRH (1:04:31 AM): like with Adrian and Ben, I mean, I definitley feel like that was all my fault
Nail60 (1:03:49 AM): I understand. I noramaly don't get attatched like that offten but other time I want to.
LilpupLRH (1:04:38 AM): whether I'll admit it to anyone else
LilpupLRH (1:04:41 AM): or not
Nail60 (1:04:02 AM): like I want to have those feeling but deep down i don't.
LilpupLRH (1:05:01 AM): Feelings of attatchment?
Nail60 (1:04:27 AM): Sorta i guess.
Nail60 (1:04:55 AM): But things like that happen to people that get to caught up in moving of and forgetting things.
Nail60 (1:05:36 AM): So fear of attechment and things like that are improtant to a certain extent.
Nail60 (1:06:13 AM): Circles are dangerous as well...
LilpupLRH (1:07:05 AM): What do you mean
Nail60 (1:07:35 AM): hehe, I'll talk to you about it another day. you'll probably get it eventualy.
LilpupLRH (1:08:32 AM): ..Okay.
Nail60 (1:08:16 AM): Sorry. `=
LilpupLRH (1:10:25 AM): Hahah it's okay
LilpupLRH (1:10:33 AM): Let me ask you this
LilpupLRH (1:10:39 AM): It's kind of weird
Nail60 (1:10:14 AM): yes?
LilpupLRH (1:11:07 AM): am I a good friend?
LilpupLRH (1:11:16 AM): hahah it's a stupid question, I know
Nail60 (1:10:46 AM): Probably the best at being a friend I know.
LilpupLRH (1:11:59 AM): Do you mean that?
Nail60 (1:11:41 AM): yeah. Even if it sounds stupid.
Nail60 (1:12:21 AM): You just know what to say whether it matters or not.
Nail60 (1:12:49 AM): Even if ther right think to say is I don't know.
LilpupLRH (1:15:36 AM): Damn.
LilpupLRH (1:15:46 AM): That's the nicest thing I can remember
Nail60 (1:15:36 AM): lol
Nail60 (1:16:07 AM): I've said other nice things to you. I guess you don't remember. o4r this was nicer. XD
LilpupLRH (1:17:05 AM): Yeah this was nicer, hahah.
LilpupLRH (1:17:25 AM): Mostly just because being a bad friend is a big insecurity
LilpupLRH (1:17:36 AM): I've been accused of it many times
Nail60 (1:17:10 AM): Well that was only cuz they suck so bad at it.
LilpupLRH (1:18:06 AM): Hahahah, you think?
Nail60 (1:17:30 AM): yeah.
LilpupLRH (1:18:17 AM): Some of these people are your friends now
Nail60 (1:17:41 AM): Well, they were sucking at it at the time
Nail60 (1:17:51 AM): and what do you mean?
Nail60 (1:18:01 AM): do i talk to them offten?
LilpupLRH (1:18:50 AM): I don't know.
LilpupLRH (1:19:12 AM): I just can't see why they hate me so damn much
Nail60 (1:18:32 AM): Even so, that don't mean there god at being my friends.
Nail60 (1:19:02 AM): I think it's stupid. That's all I can say.
LilpupLRH (1:20:03 AM): Have they given you any reasons?
Nail60 (1:24:53 AM): I don't talk to them. They just say it's wrong for someones best friend to do that a little less than a week from the break up. Which I think is stupid. Adrian was just pissed cuz ben never made a move on her (Which was one of the main reasons she broke up with him the first time. Wow that gives me ideas) So when he ended up making out with you like that a week after she had given up on hoping for something like that with hip it messed with her and yet gave her hope and also her excuse to yell at you for having been her best friend and then "Betraying" her like that. So then she ends up with hima few weekas later cuz she thinks he might have more guts now. But she didn't realize thart he still didn't and that you just have more guts than either of them. And I guess she has issues with you being better than her in so many ways. And it's hard to be best friends with someone that is on a different level than you. *breath*
Nail60 (1:25:02 AM): There you go
Nail60 (1:25:23 AM): I found something to say. thanks for the food for thought. XD
LilpupLRH (1:26:49 AM): Damn.
LilpupLRH (1:26:59 AM): He never made a move on her?
Nail60 (1:26:29 AM): He kissed her like... three times er so?
Nail60 (1:26:44 AM): But they never made out like she probably hoped.
Nail60 (1:26:49 AM): I don't think.
LilpupLRH (1:27:44 AM): no way.
LilpupLRH (1:27:49 AM): So that's why she was so ******** pissed
LilpupLRH (1:28:03 AM): She was resenting me because he could make a move on me but not on her
LilpupLRH (1:28:07 AM): It wasn;t even about me
Nail60 (1:27:34 AM): hey, they never said this to me. XD this is what i just now concluded.
Nail60 (1:28:41 AM): That also explains why she wasn't pissed at ben at all. Even though he did just as much as you did in that he was making out with her best friend a week after getting dumped.
LilpupLRH (1:29:35 AM): Two weeeks.
Nail60 (1:29:03 AM): Wow... it was two weeks...
Nail60 (1:29:06 AM): that's so sad.
Nail60 (1:29:12 AM): pathetic
LilpupLRH (1:30:29 AM): What, that we made out after only two weeks or that she freaked the ******** out after two whole weeks
Nail60 (1:30:12 AM): yeah. that she freaked out after two whole weeks
LilpupLRH (1:31:08 AM): And SHE dumped HIM
Nail60 (1:30:41 AM): Yeah. Because she wanted more than he was giving.
Nail60 (1:31:04 AM): Which is extremely shallow but enyone would do that. so I won't accuse her.
LilpupLRH (1:32:37 AM): Nah, I mean, in her situation i'd have done the same
LilpupLRH (1:32:43 AM): that so explains why she still hates me
LilpupLRH (1:32:53 AM): Because she STILL resents me for it
LilpupLRH (1:32:58 AM): hot damn this makes so much sense
Nail60 (1:32:25 AM): and for other things probably.
Nail60 (1:32:31 AM): Yeah it does.
Nail60 (1:32:33 AM): Wow
LilpupLRH (1:33:21 AM): Other things like what?
Nail60 (1:32:39 AM): I'm smart. XD
Nail60 (1:34:12 AM): I dunno, things that may of may not be arguable. Maybe you talents she make think you have stronger ones. Maybe she thinks you've been more succesfull at things and casting you out from her group is like a win for her. Many things. I think she shares many of your fears.
LilpupLRH (1:35:26 AM): I feel kind of bad
LilpupLRH (1:35:40 AM): Like, for her. I never meant for her to feel inadequate
Nail60 (1:35:03 AM): Lol
Nail60 (1:35:30 AM): Don't feel bad over that. People get over these things. SHe smart she be fine.
LilpupLRH (1:36:30 AM): Did you hear that she's transferring to Atherton next year?
Nail60 (1:36:06 AM): No. That seems sorta lame.
Nail60 (1:36:19 AM): Have you thought about it though?
LilpupLRH (1:37:09 AM): No.
LilpupLRH (1:37:11 AM): Not anymore
Nail60 (1:36:29 AM): Cool
Nail60 (1:36:59 AM): You could still transfer magnets if she fel that VA really was a waist of time for you.
Nail60 (1:37:09 AM): *you felt like it
LilpupLRH (1:38:07 AM): I don't know. I kind of feel like it's my ticket into college.
LilpupLRH (1:38:26 AM): Like, I don't want to be an artist, but it's one thing I'm pretty good at
Nail60 (1:38:04 AM): Your smart though. And you do a lot. You'll get into so many colleges.
Nail60 (1:38:59 AM): Being socialy active and having a lot of big things to put on your ressume or essays is very important.
LilpupLRH (1:40:33 AM): I think we're doing a good job
Nail60 (1:40:06 AM): Hm? Me? At what? Doing things?
Nail60 (1:40:54 AM): I need to do more than I am if I want to get into an IV legue like cornell er something.
LilpupLRH (1:42:00 AM): I can so get you into volunteer work s**t if you need it
LilpupLRH (1:42:06 AM): I do too much
LilpupLRH (1:42:08 AM): OH guess what
Nail60 (1:41:37 AM): What?
Nail60 (1:43:08 AM): ...
LilpupLRH (1:44:06 AM): I'm shadowing a psychologist at the state penetentiary
Nail60 (1:43:41 AM): That's so awesome!!!
Nail60 (1:43:46 AM): When?
LilpupLRH (1:45:33 AM): Some time soon, probably January
LilpupLRH (1:45:46 AM): I'm so excited
Nail60 (1:45:47 AM): Coolio. XP
LilpupLRH (1:48:25 AM): yesyesyes.
LilpupLRH (1:48:28 AM): So yeah.
LilpupLRH (1:48:35 AM): I decided I want to go to Standford.
Nail60 (1:48:37 AM): Which one is that again?
LilpupLRH (1:49:30 AM): California
Nail60 (1:48:54 AM): lol
LilpupLRH (1:49:40 AM): not old enough to be ivy league but tuition is aout the same
Nail60 (1:49:03 AM): happy you. XD
Nail60 (1:49:27 AM): get a full scholorship. ^_^
LilpupLRH (1:50:52 AM): Haaaa.
LilpupLRH (1:50:57 AM): Fat chance but I can try
LilpupLRH (1:51:03 AM): Too bad I lost my 4.0 already
Nail60 (1:50:28 AM): I think you could get a pretty big one.
Nail60 (1:50:46 AM): 4.0 is stupid you know?
Nail60 (1:51:22 AM): I onlu got one all through middle school. Now I'm having trouble keeping above a 3.5
Nail60 (1:51:24 AM): Oh...
Nail60 (1:51:31 AM): and how did you fail geometry?
LilpupLRH (1:52:24 AM): I didn't fail, I got a B+
Nail60 (1:51:44 AM): lol
LilpupLRH (1:52:28 AM): but I was afraid of failing
LilpupLRH (1:52:30 AM): as usual
Nail60 (1:52:11 AM): shut up then. XD 3.9 is still amazing.
LilpupLRH (1:53:08 AM): nononoono hahhaha
LilpupLRH (1:53:10 AM): I think I got a B in science too
LilpupLRH (1:53:21 AM): because I was seriously like .03 away from an A
LilpupLRH (1:53:28 AM): such bullshit
LilpupLRH (1:53:44 AM): art classes aced, I don't know what I did in espanol
LilpupLRH (1:53:53 AM): english A
LilpupLRH (1:54:04 AM): I should have an A in spanish but I never know
Nail60 (1:53:25 AM): I got like... 2 B's 4 a's and a c I think...
Nail60 (1:53:41 AM): sPANISH MESSES WITH ME AS WELL...
Nail60 (1:53:54 AM): I don't know how her grading works.
Nail60 (1:54:54 AM): .3 away from an A id rounded up just so you know.
Nail60 (1:54:59 AM): normally...
Nail60 (1:55:02 AM): XD
LilpupLRH (1:55:49 AM): Yeah, I know.
LilpupLRH (1:55:56 AM): But i'm not sure what she does.
LilpupLRH (1:56:05 AM): she knows I busted my a** all semester
Nail60 (1:55:22 AM): SHe's not that crqazy
Nail60 (1:55:30 AM): though
LilpupLRH (1:57:49 AM): god I hope not
LilpupLRH (1:59:49 AM): Waitwaitwait
LilpupLRH (1:59:55 AM): okay not to backtrack here
LilpupLRH (2:00:04 AM): but if thats why Adrian and all of them hate me
LilpupLRH (2:00:07 AM): what's Ben's excuse?
Nail60 (2:00:19 AM): lol he's a fallower sometimes.
LilpupLRH (2:01:17 AM): Maybe so but that doesn't explain
LilpupLRH (2:01:27 AM): 1. Why he could make a move on me and not Adrian
LilpupLRH (2:01:35 AM): or 2. Why he still hates me to this very day
Nail60 (2:02:34 AM): Becuase you cheered him on and she never tried. She made it all up tio him as if she wasn't allowed to do anything. She actualy were like letas do this. And he doesn't hate you I don't think. The only excuse i her from him is, "Dude, look who she astarted hanging out with..."
LilpupLRH (2:04:07 AM): Funny thing is, those drug addicts are better friends than anyone I used to hang out with, with the singular exception of you.
Nail60 (2:03:59 AM): lol
LilpupLRH (2:04:46 AM): I actually find them to be less ******** up.
Nail60 (2:04:04 AM): That's and yeah.
LilpupLRH (2:04:54 AM): But that doesn't leave this conversation
Nail60 (2:04:13 AM): *thanks
LilpupLRH (2:05:13 AM): Thanks for backing me up.
LilpupLRH (2:05:32 AM): I'll just never understand Ben's part in this whole thing
Nail60 (2:05:06 AM): I don't get it yet Ither.
Nail60 (2:05:09 AM): e
LilpupLRH (2:07:02 AM): Not to vent on you
LilpupLRH (2:07:09 AM): but I feel like...used
Nail60 (2:06:33 AM): By me?
Nail60 (2:06:39 AM): err...
LilpupLRH (2:07:25 AM): nonononono.
LilpupLRH (2:07:27 AM): by him
Nail60 (2:06:45 AM): lol
Nail60 (2:06:47 AM): sorry
Nail60 (2:07:03 AM): I don't think he had any intention of using youy.
Nail60 (2:07:37 AM): He definatly didn't plan on throwing you out after one night like that.
Nail60 (2:07:55 AM): He blinds himself to make himself feel better about his life.
LilpupLRH (2:08:56 AM): It sure as hell felt like some hormonal fix
LilpupLRH (2:09:04 AM): like he never had any feelings for me at all
LilpupLRH (2:09:19 AM): like I was just...disposable
Nail60 (2:09:00 AM): Maybe, but he said he loved you, but it apperently was just a fase. We all have them.
LilpupLRH (2:10:05 AM): I don't want to be a phase.
LilpupLRH (2:10:20 AM): I didn't see myself as a phase.
Nail60 (2:09:40 AM): love was the pfase
Nail60 (2:09:47 AM): *phase
Nail60 (2:09:49 AM): not you
LilpupLRH (2:10:52 AM): I hope not.
LilpupLRH (2:11:08 AM): Love isn't a phase.
Nail60 (2:10:39 AM): You of all people should under stand hoe the human mind works at times like these. ^_^
LilpupLRH (2:11:33 AM): I do.
LilpupLRH (2:11:39 AM): its just hardto putout of the way
LilpupLRH (2:11:46 AM): the way I feel about things
Nail60 (2:11:11 AM): Love can be an illusion crated by hormones. So you were right.
Nail60 (2:11:31 AM): It's scientific really.
Nail60 (2:11:57 AM): Love is in fact a chemical we release. All emotions are. this is basic.
LilpupLRH (2:13:03 AM): So it's reasonable to miss that.
Nail60 (2:12:21 AM): You sometime can and sometimes can controll those chemicals.
Nail60 (2:12:37 AM): *can't
LilpupLRH (2:13:34 AM): I mean, love's a chemical. And it makes sense to miss the chemical
LilpupLRH (2:13:39 AM): I miss how I felt
Nail60 (2:13:12 AM): yeah. Just like happiness.
Nail60 (2:13:43 AM): There are drugs that help people release these chemicals in large amounts. that what most of them are.
Nail60 (2:14:08 AM): That's why we get addicted to them and love the even though you know they could kill you.
LilpupLRH (2:15:07 AM): It felt like remission, hah.
LilpupLRH (2:15:16 AM): After being hung out to dry like that
Nail60 (2:14:39 AM): What does that mean... XD
Nail60 (2:14:45 AM): remission
Nail60 (2:14:50 AM): sorry
LilpupLRH (2:15:36 AM): Like, I felt like an addict that didn't get their drugs anymore
Nail60 (2:14:59 AM): lol
Nail60 (2:16:08 AM): But after having quite for over a few mounths of less depending on how addicted you are you can normally get over it no mater what. But you can still rember it was good even though you can remember the exact feeling correct?
LilpupLRH (2:17:11 AM): I mean, I still miss the feeling
LilpupLRH (2:17:24 AM): I do remember exactly how it was
Nail60 (2:16:55 AM): Would you want it with him again?
LilpupLRH (2:17:41 AM): Like, I can never tell if I miss Ben or just how I felt during that time
LilpupLRH (2:17:49 AM): I don't know
Nail60 (2:17:11 AM): oh.
LilpupLRH (2:18:04 AM): I want it again period
LilpupLRH (2:18:10 AM): He's just the familliar option
Nail60 (2:18:09 AM): You remember to well. XD You should look for it with someone other than him.
LilpupLRH (2:18:59 AM): But the Ben I see now is a different person than the Ben I used to know
Nail60 (2:18:37 AM): even if he did suddenly want you again she should reject and take the longer road.
Nail60 (2:18:48 AM): *-*you
LilpupLRH (2:19:38 AM): Hah, I don't know what I'd do
LilpupLRH (2:19:48 AM): I probably would want to sort s**t out first
LilpupLRH (2:19:54 AM): Like, what the ******** happened last year
Nail60 (2:19:16 AM): Yeah...
Nail60 (2:20:00 AM): I remember when you looked at me last you when you were about to cry and I couldn't take it so i turned away.
LilpupLRH (2:21:02 AM): When?
LilpupLRH (2:21:06 AM): Like, specifically
Nail60 (2:20:49 AM): Just after Alew M. has been cheered pod to call you a whore.
Nail60 (2:21:37 AM): you had your hands on my shoulder and asked me why this was happening.
LilpupLRH (2:22:45 AM): I didn't understand
Nail60 (2:22:17 AM): i didn't either so I didn't know what to do.
LilpupLRH (2:23:14 AM): You did exactly what you should have done
Nail60 (2:22:53 AM): I feel like i should have huged you or something.
LilpupLRH (2:23:53 AM): Hey, it doesnt matter now
Nail60 (2:23:14 AM): Lol
Nail60 (2:23:16 AM): Yeah
LilpupLRH (2:24:12 AM): You sticking with me meant more to me than anything you could have done
Nail60 (2:23:52 AM): Thanks and your welcome
LilpupLRH (2:24:52 AM): God, it was so ******** up
LilpupLRH (2:25:03 AM): The strongest most intense pain I've ever felt
LilpupLRH (2:25:14 AM): It sounds petty and I hate myself for it
Nail60 (2:24:34 AM): Is it that hard to forget?
LilpupLRH (2:25:37 AM): Just the supreme sense of abandonment
Nail60 (2:25:12 AM): naked crying in the rain
LilpupLRH (2:26:04 AM): Not to sound pathetic, I know it shouldn't affect me
LilpupLRH (2:26:19 AM): but what that group has done to my self esteem over the last four years is profound
Nail60 (2:26:55 AM): I think don't you you self esteem has shown as much change as I expected is would have. I remember you in 6th grade. You've only improved sense then.
LilpupLRH (2:28:02 AM): Yes, my social skills have greatly improved
LilpupLRH (2:28:07 AM): But my ego suffered
Nail60 (2:27:35 AM): I think your fine
LilpupLRH (2:28:27 AM): Hahahah, I hope so.
Nail60 (2:28:15 AM): I don't see any scratche and this Xray shows no broken bones. ^_^ Go make a difference.
Nail60 (2:28:17 AM): XP
Nail60 (2:28:22 AM): sorry for the cheese
LilpupLRH (2:29:10 AM): hahahahahaha,
LilpupLRH (2:29:13 AM): god
LilpupLRH (2:29:31 AM): Seriously though
LilpupLRH (2:29:38 AM): What the hell is upwith Ben this year?
Nail60 (2:29:39 AM): Hm? I don't have any way to talk to him or watch him except the bus. I don't see much change. Tell me.
LilpupLRH (2:30:35 AM): maybe it's just to me
LilpupLRH (2:30:43 AM): but it goes back and forth, constantly
LilpupLRH (2:30:50 AM): like, occasionally very friendly
LilpupLRH (2:31:06 AM): occasionally, referencing last year in the good period
LilpupLRH (2:31:15 AM): but then he can be a cynical little b***h
Nail60 (2:30:42 AM): That's ben XD
Nail60 (2:30:48 AM): Don't worry about him.
LilpupLRH (2:31:36 AM): Not even in an appealing way!
LilpupLRH (2:31:47 AM): Just in an oh shut the ******** up for once kind of way
Nail60 (2:31:05 AM): lol
Nail60 (2:31:13 AM): yeah
LilpupLRH (2:32:08 AM): Last year, at least his problems were interesting and he wasn't such a damn downer
Nail60 (2:31:47 AM): I know exactly. I have sense i met hime third grade. He hasn't changedbn that much.
LilpupLRH (2:32:43 AM): Now it's like if you say something, he'll just be like "Who are you talking to." and if you tell him, he'll just say something like "Okay." Like you're some kind of freak show
Nail60 (2:32:14 AM): You just became smarter than he is.
LilpupLRH (2:33:07 AM): Thank you, thank you.
Nail60 (2:32:40 AM): I did you.
Nail60 (2:32:52 AM): I can hardly talk to him on the same level.
Nail60 (2:33:57 AM): He's not enteresting anymore. He thinks he's cool but I can't seem to see eye to eye with him. It's looking down now. Even though i used to look up. But he hasn't changed.'
LilpupLRH (2:35:02 AM): I think that's why you're so much better than he is.
LilpupLRH (2:35:29 AM): You recognize other needs other than your own. You are tuned into reality. You've grown up enough to see that seriously, the world does NOT revolve around you.
LilpupLRH (2:35:50 AM): Ben, I think he's still in that stage that's like he doesn't understand how to deal with anyone else
LilpupLRH (2:35:56 AM): Or their feelings
Nail60 (2:35:19 AM): Yeah. I see
LilpupLRH (2:36:07 AM): I dont think he's grown up enough to even care, really
Nail60 (2:35:31 AM): So maybe he will catch back up someday.
LilpupLRH (2:36:28 AM): Assuming his parents didnt permanently ******** him up
Nail60 (2:35:59 AM): Maybe I'll be able to talk to him the way we use to when we were equal.
Nail60 (2:36:07 AM): yeah
Nail60 (2:36:10 AM): your right.
Nail60 (2:37:02 AM): I can't wait for him to totally rebel. XD
Nail60 (2:38:13 AM): Haha, new record on how late I've stayed up talking to you i think.
LilpupLRH (2:39:09 AM): Hahah, yeah.
LilpupLRH (2:39:18 AM): Yeah it's been like two hours now
LilpupLRH (2:39:28 AM): This would be more efficient on the phone, I think
LilpupLRH (2:39:36 AM): We should try that sometime in our lives
Nail60 (2:39:13 AM): Really? I don't think that would give as much time ti think or as much room for review.
Nail60 (2:39:24 AM): But we should still try
Nail60 (2:39:52 AM): I mean I can still type at a decent speed.
LilpupLRH (2:43:05 AM): I can type quickly too
LilpupLRH (2:43:06 AM): ahah
LilpupLRH (2:43:13 AM): as effective as it is
Nail60 (2:42:34 AM): hihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihi
LilpupLRH (2:43:19 AM): change is nice sometimes
Nail60 (2:42:37 AM): XD
Nail60 (2:42:42 AM): XP
Nail60 (2:43:31 AM): I like trying to hit as many repeating kyes as possib;e so they do thing like thqan when you hold them all down. it's cool. XP
Nail60 (2:43:37 AM): adgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadgadg
Nail60 (2:43:39 AM): three
Nail60 (2:44:19 AM): ggggggggggggggggggfofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgooooooooooooooooooffffffffffffgrggggggggggggggggggffrrrrrrrrrrrrrgrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfrfg
Nail60 (2:44:20 AM): ...
LilpupLRH (2:45:07 AM): sdflkjsdflkjsdflkjsdflkjsdflkjsdflkjsdflkjsdflkjsdflkjsdflkjsdflkjsdfkljsdflkjsdflkjsdflkj
LilpupLRH (2:45:09 AM): hahahh! SIX
Nail60 (2:44:28 AM): I'm trying to do frog. XP
LilpupLRH (2:45:29 AM): gfrfrgfrgfrggfgfrggfrof
LilpupLRH (2:45:31 AM): I fail
LilpupLRH (2:45:36 AM): hahah
Nail60 (2:45:10 AM): This kye board won't do four
Nail60 (2:45:30 AM): fgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgo... fog?
Nail60 (2:46:07 AM): fgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgofgo gaaaaah!
Nail60 (2:46:09 AM): Anyway
Nail60 (2:46:10 AM): XP
Nail60 (2:47:32 AM): Well Olivia wants to out stay up late me so i'll go ag=head and let her win that and say good night.
LilpupLRH (2:48:29 AM): whaaaat
Nail60 (2:47:51 AM): Eh?
Nail60 (2:48:00 AM): *ahead
Nail60 (2:48:02 AM): ?
LilpupLRH (2:49:09 AM): I'm confused
Nail60 (2:48:37 AM): about?
LilpupLRH (2:49:21 AM): clarify what is happening
Nail60 (2:48:48 AM): I'm going to bed?
Nail60 (2:48:50 AM): lol
Nail60 (2:48:54 AM): tired there?'
LilpupLRH (2:49:37 AM): fuuuuck
LilpupLRH (2:49:40 AM): yeah
LilpupLRH (2:49:44 AM): I guess I should too
LilpupLRH (2:49:45 AM): hah
Nail60 (2:49:08 AM): good night then. XD
LilpupLRH (2:49:56 AM): but seriously we ought to try the phone thing sometime
Nail60 (2:49:17 AM): ok.
LilpupLRH (2:50:01 AM): later, Sebrand
Nail60 (2:49:24 AM): Later Leah
Nail60 (2:50:12 AM): ha I just copied this conversation and it took a few seconds to load. XP
LilpupLRH (2:51:13 AM): Hah, where are you putting it?
Nail60 (2:50:54 AM): gaia. No one that cares will read it there. ^_^
Nail60 (2:51:05 AM): And I don't exactly publisize my journal.
LilpupLRH (2:51:59 AM): It's cool.
Nail60 (2:51:25 AM): ok then. Good night.
LilpupLRH (2:52:15 AM): Niiiight.
LilpupLRH (2:52:21 AM): And, thanks
LilpupLRH (2:52:32 AM): You're good at clearing things up
Nail60 (2:51:52 AM): thank you as well.
Nail60 (2:52:04 AM): you are good at helping me crear things up
Nail60 (2:52:36 AM): I wouldn't mind working for you some day.
LilpupLRH (2:53:26 AM): Hahahah.
LilpupLRH (2:53:39 AM): Hey, I'd work with you some day.
Nail60 (2:53:21 AM): Yeah. XD For real now. good night. XP
LilpupLRH (2:54:17 AM): Good niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.
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