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	A friend to keep
	A friend to keep


Ivoire Menteur (7:23:54 PM): you're right Nail60 (7:28:12 PM): hm? Nail60 (7:28:30 PM): thanks? Nail60 (7:28:39 PM): Er... I toldja so? Ivoire Menteur (7:29:05 PM): Uh huh Nail60 (7:29:25 PM): What? Ivoire Menteur (7:31:14 PM): yes Nail60 (7:31:55 PM): I know, right? It's crazy, it just is, you know? Ivoire Menteur (7:32:07 PM): It really, really is Nail60 (7:33:45 PM): You're right to right? ey. Ivoire Menteur (7:33:54 PM): yes Ivoire Menteur (7:34:14 PM): and then I ate hairspray Ivoire Menteur (7:34:19 PM): and curled up into a little ball Ivoire Menteur (7:34:22 PM): and died Nail60 (7:34:21 PM): No way Ivoire Menteur (7:34:27 PM): ya Nail60 (7:34:34 PM): That wouldn't happen. Nail60 (7:34:47 PM): Technicaly you would just keel over. Nail60 (7:34:56 PM): and ewplode you know? Ivoire Menteur (7:35:06 PM): I didn't explode Nail60 (7:35:04 PM): ewplode yes. Ivoire Menteur (7:35:42 PM): no I didn't Ivoire Menteur (7:35:52 PM): and no one stopped me from painting everyone's faces before I departed Nail60 (7:36:18 PM): i coulda done worse. Ivoire Menteur (7:36:32 PM): I don't think so Ivoire Menteur (7:36:34 PM): everyone was red Ivoire Menteur (7:36:40 PM): and blue Ivoire Menteur (7:37:14 PM): even yours Nail60 (7:37:21 PM): yeah... Nail60 (7:37:26 PM): it tasted good. Ivoire Menteur (7:38:07 PM): acrylics paint in technicolor Ivoire Menteur (7:38:17 PM): it;s the chemicals that make it taste like your favorite pastry Ivoire Menteur (7:38:30 PM): and your favorite memory of the water Nail60 (7:38:57 PM): i love it. Nail60 (7:39:07 PM): it was when i ate it all. Nail60 (7:39:11 PM): remember? Ivoire Menteur (7:39:45 PM): every second Ivoire Menteur (7:39:51 PM): and every word they said I remember Ivoire Menteur (7:40:08 PM): I remember in vivid details as if it were strewn across my very pupila Ivoire Menteur (7:40:23 PM): in ink and fire and everything at once Nail60 (7:40:26 PM): that's all. Ivoire Menteur (7:40:40 PM): no Ivoire Menteur (7:40:41 PM): it's not Ivoire Menteur (7:40:45 PM): where have you even been? Nail60 (7:41:17 PM): yes Ivoire Menteur (7:41:22 PM): it started so long ago Nail60 (7:41:22 PM): i hav4e been Ivoire Menteur (7:41:49 PM): the bus left and there isn't a seat Nail60 (7:41:47 PM): i remember too. Ivoire Menteur (7:42:03 PM): so I sat on the sidewalk and talked to the grass Ivoire Menteur (7:42:12 PM): right on the cold, cold curb Nail60 (7:42:11 PM): i was the grass Nail60 (7:42:23 PM): and the road Ivoire Menteur (7:42:42 PM): you were cold to me Nail60 (7:43:09 PM): i showed love those. it was all for you. Nail60 (7:43:15 PM): though* Nail60 (7:43:25 PM): always Nail60 (7:43:32 PM): and forever. Nail60 (7:43:35 PM): still Ivoire Menteur (7:44:02 PM): I don't ever know if I can believe you Ivoire Menteur (7:44:25 PM): because it's so hard to take something so seriously that you just...live on the inside Ivoire Menteur (7:44:45 PM): I don't know that you know about that Nail60 (7:44:44 PM): i live Ivoire Menteur (7:44:54 PM): so do I Ivoire Menteur (7:45:02 PM): I guess thats what we have in common Nail60 (7:45:11 PM): wait... are we being srious. Nail60 (7:45:12 PM): ? Ivoire Menteur (7:45:23 PM): what? Nail60 (7:46:26 PM): i was just responding to the things you were saying with what I thought made it sound like good random rambly/dueting. Ivoire Menteur (7:46:43 PM): well I was typing intrinsically Ivoire Menteur (7:46:48 PM): and incessantly Ivoire Menteur (7:47:09 PM): what part could be serious? hah Nail60 (7:47:24 PM): ok. Nail60 (7:47:37 PM): let us keep going then that was fun Ivoire Menteur (7:48:05 PM): well you know Ivoire Menteur (7:48:12 PM): it's all serious to some degree Ivoire Menteur (7:48:20 PM): not about anything Ivoire Menteur (7:48:25 PM): everything is real Ivoire Menteur (7:48:30 PM): everything is intentional Ivoire Menteur (7:48:57 PM): and everything is like a cellophane novel, like concrete blown to pieces by everything starting with the letter b Ivoire Menteur (7:49:19 PM): everything starting with c Ivoire Menteur (7:49:24 PM): everything starting with d Ivoire Menteur (7:49:47 PM): and eventually the whole damn alphabet except a and y, both of which never filled out the permission slip Nail60 (7:49:48 PM): everything ending the same every time the same beginng. Ivoire Menteur (7:50:16 PM): everything is on repeat and I don't know what you're even mentioning Ivoire Menteur (7:50:21 PM): everything is on guard and every word Ivoire Menteur (7:50:31 PM): falls out of my mouth like a cliff that never completed Ivoire Menteur (7:50:37 PM): itself Nail60 (7:51:07 PM): yet everyseconond wear hitting the ground at 1000 miles per hour. Ivoire Menteur (7:51:28 PM): as if anyone knows about anything like that Nail60 (7:52:15 PM): and we're not getting far before someone or something gets in opur way and send us back to the end of the hall for running to fast. Ivoire Menteur (7:52:47 PM): everything jus tfeels like rain except sometimes it's exhilirating Nail60 (7:53:00 PM): and sometimes it's hail. Ivoire Menteur (7:53:05 PM): like soda on the skin on the hottest day of the year it sticks to me like fructose I liked but won't admit Nail60 (7:53:21 PM): but for some reson it doesn't hurt. but entead... Nail60 (7:53:40 PM): it... Nail60 (7:53:52 PM): find me the words. Ivoire Menteur (7:54:09 PM): it is never over Ivoire Menteur (7:54:14 PM): and we just accept it Ivoire Menteur (7:54:18 PM): and it's so Nail60 (7:54:23 PM): and we live Ivoire Menteur (7:54:26 PM): consistent and disgusting and beautiful like everyone Nail60 (7:54:27 PM): both of us. Ivoire Menteur (7:54:35 PM): and everything that nothing and no one apprecieates Nail60 (7:54:38 PM): like everyone. Ivoire Menteur (7:54:43 PM): thats what we can embody Ivoire Menteur (7:55:07 PM): like laying down on abandoned train tracks Nail60 (7:55:48 PM): that weren't as abandond as you thought. Nail60 (7:56:21 PM): We need... what? Nail60 (7:56:24 PM): nothing? Nail60 (7:56:32 PM): we want? what? Nail60 (7:56:36 PM): enything Nail60 (7:56:45 PM): anything that will make us... Nail60 (7:56:53 PM): alive? Ivoire Menteur (7:57:01 PM): alive but not alone Nail60 (7:57:07 PM): and true? Nail60 (7:57:14 PM): no... Ivoire Menteur (7:57:40 PM): and genuinely, on the way to death from when we're born Ivoire Menteur (7:57:45 PM): but not even caring Ivoire Menteur (7:58:00 PM): for one single second, as if it were avoidable Ivoire Menteur (7:58:12 PM): as if by some force, by some effort, it didn't even have to happen Nail60 (7:58:48 PM): but that wasn't-isn't how it is. we know this... deep down doesn't everyone? Ivoire Menteur (7:59:11 PM): but who can speak it and why Nail60 (7:59:23 PM): know that it wasn't anyones choice. noone could stop the exsistance of... Ivoire Menteur (7:59:25 PM): I can provide answers but not to why I can't believe anyone but two people Ivoire Menteur (7:59:54 PM): when you're falling down the stairs and people just stare at you you know exactly what life is for Nail60 (7:59:57 PM): the worthless yet joyful exsistan OF Ivoire Menteur (8:00:06 PM): and everything is catching you but everyone else Ivoire Menteur (8:00:20 PM): you have to stop yourself, let the wind stop you Nail60 (8:00:23 PM): no Ivoire Menteur (8:00:36 PM): let the brown hair dye hold you back and let everyone you ever wanted to love you love you Nail60 (8:00:35 PM): we will stop ourselves Nail60 (8:00:46 PM): love you Nail60 (8:00:58 PM): and when we ruuuun!!! Nail60 (8:01:04 PM): WWE'LL RUN FOREVER! Nail60 (8:01:11 PM): hehe Ivoire Menteur (8:01:17 PM): and never ever ever have to stop Ivoire Menteur (8:01:31 PM): ever. Nail60 (8:01:40 PM): untill we win. Ivoire Menteur (8:01:48 PM): but we already are Nail60 (8:01:50 PM): or we die. Nail60 (8:01:52 PM): dead? Ivoire Menteur (8:02:05 PM): are you dead, Sebrand? Ivoire Menteur (8:02:07 PM): are you sincere? Ivoire Menteur (8:02:11 PM): are you careful? Nail60 (8:02:27 PM): I am... human? Nail60 (8:02:37 PM): i hope not Nail60 (8:02:47 PM): I wish not? or do I? Nail60 (8:03:09 PM): what advantages... what not. Ivoire Menteur (8:03:26 PM): if I have to tell you then it's not a secret anymore Nail60 (8:03:25 PM): what would we be enstead. Ivoire Menteur (8:03:41 PM): we'd be...a joke Ivoire Menteur (8:03:43 PM): but not like this one Nail60 (8:03:48 PM): A true joke? Ivoire Menteur (8:04:00 PM): no Nail60 (8:04:04 PM): then a lie? Ivoire Menteur (8:04:12 PM): thats up to you. Ivoire Menteur (8:04:14 PM): entirely. Nail60 (8:04:23 PM): would saying your not human be a lie? Nail60 (8:04:29 PM): under... Ivoire Menteur (8:04:36 PM): no. I'm saying Nail60 (8:04:36 PM): any sercumstance? Ivoire Menteur (8:04:41 PM): outside of wht you're saying Ivoire Menteur (8:04:48 PM): everything is in gray Ivoire Menteur (8:05:01 PM): this conversation is in white but colors Ivoire Menteur (8:05:05 PM): colors are so much prettier than white Nail60 (8:05:32 PM): I beleive then that the only thing that matters is thins conversation. Ivoire Menteur (8:05:58 PM): I believe i'm calling your bluff. Nail60 (8:06:03 PM): i do to. Nail60 (8:06:17 PM): what isn't a... bluff. Nail60 (8:06:21 PM): a lie. Nail60 (8:06:26 PM): whats real? Nail60 (8:06:33 PM): we think... Nail60 (8:06:37 PM): i think... Nail60 (8:06:46 PM): there for we must Ivoire Menteur (8:06:54 PM): we must be real. Nail60 (8:06:56 PM): hava always' Nail60 (8:07:03 PM): are Nail60 (8:07:07 PM): will be Ivoire Menteur (8:07:20 PM): I don't like incincerity Ivoire Menteur (8:07:27 PM): it's not fun if it's empty words Ivoire Menteur (8:07:30 PM): for the sake of poetry Ivoire Menteur (8:07:40 PM): I always hated empty words for the sake of poetry Nail60 (8:07:39 PM): what about the things that don't think? Ivoire Menteur (8:07:51 PM): they laugh at this prospect Nail60 (8:07:49 PM): i'm sorry... Nail60 (8:08:20 PM): even if their empty but they still mean something? Nail60 (8:08:28 PM): what of those? Nail60 (8:08:48 PM): we know what we mean when we say them. Ivoire Menteur (8:08:56 PM): they're borderline unfair, like the concrete, and the bus, and the grass Ivoire Menteur (8:09:01 PM): I don't understand anything Ivoire Menteur (8:09:08 PM): so I just go away Nail60 (8:09:42 PM): I won't go with you... Nail60 (8:09:55 PM): but in the opposite dirction. Nail60 (8:09:58 PM): we'll... Nail60 (8:10:04 PM): meat up on the other side Ivoire Menteur (8:10:38 PM): I think you think I'm dependant Ivoire Menteur (8:10:58 PM): I need nothing more than hairspray paint and my book Nail60 (8:11:04 PM): no Nail60 (8:11:12 PM): i think you need help... Nail60 (8:11:36 PM): um... Ivoire Menteur (8:11:48 PM): I don't. Nail60 (8:11:55 PM): you know this? Ivoire Menteur (8:12:03 PM): I know what? Nail60 (8:12:16 PM): we'll meat up on the other side. Ivoire Menteur (8:12:32 PM): that sounds noncommital and nonconfrontational Ivoire Menteur (8:12:47 PM): I hate both these things and you're just saying what I've heard before Ivoire Menteur (8:13:02 PM): I can swim myself Nail60 (8:13:37 PM): fare. Nail60 (8:14:36 PM): I'll drown alone because i can swim when i want. Ivoire Menteur (8:14:46 PM): don't go tere. Ivoire Menteur (8:14:48 PM): there Ivoire Menteur (8:14:55 PM): now you're just wanting me to say something. Nail60 (8:15:08 PM): or I can faint and tell the storry. Nail60 (8:15:53 PM): but i casn only do that by accedent.. Nail60 (8:16:06 PM): so why take the chance on purpose? Nail60 (8:16:18 PM): i have purpose. Nail60 (8:16:40 PM): so why waist it on chances... isn't life all about chances? Ivoire Menteur (8:16:52 PM): yes it is. Ivoire Menteur (8:17:01 PM): you just haven't taken the best ones Nail60 (8:17:27 PM): Well... Ivoire Menteur (8:18:08 PM): I'm convinced. Ivoire Menteur (8:18:12 PM): And you can't unconvince me. Nail60 (8:18:17 PM): ok. fare Nail60 (8:18:58 PM): I forget most of the things i learn about my self. Ivoire Menteur (8:19:12 PM): good thing you have everyone else to remember Ivoire Menteur (8:19:14 PM): I don't Nail60 (8:19:26 PM): i don't think i do. Nail60 (8:19:44 PM): you don't know you don't. Nail60 (8:19:51 PM): we're even there. Nail60 (8:20:43 PM): My dad just realized today that I reach almost every conclusion i make somehow. it does make sence. Nail60 (8:20:56 PM): you just have think differently. Ivoire Menteur (8:21:14 PM): have you lost faith in my ability to think independantly? Nail60 (8:21:54 PM): no. I have more faith in your ability to do than than i do in myself. Nail60 (8:23:01 PM): your not convenced? Ivoire Menteur (8:23:18 PM): I'm convinced in myself Ivoire Menteur (8:23:30 PM): but not convinced that you think I'm sane. Nail60 (8:23:36 PM): ha Nail60 (8:23:48 PM): you think i think your insane? Ivoire Menteur (8:23:57 PM): Yes. Ivoire Menteur (8:24:01 PM): And I hate it. Nail60 (8:24:15 PM): don't then. Ivoire Menteur (8:24:33 PM): do you think I'm insane? Nail60 (8:25:05 PM): Why would I think that? Ivoire Menteur (8:25:25 PM): you think I need help. Ivoire Menteur (8:25:36 PM): and I don't think you even want to be the one to do it Nail60 (8:26:09 PM): I didn't mean to say that. Ivoire Menteur (8:26:19 PM): fine. Ivoire Menteur (8:26:23 PM): say what you mean, now. Nail60 (8:26:23 PM): was it true at all? Ivoire Menteur (8:26:29 PM): you tell me. Nail60 (8:26:53 PM): i think you know yourself extremely well. Nail60 (8:27:08 PM): more than most people know themselves Ivoire Menteur (8:27:32 PM): that is utterly absurd Ivoire Menteur (8:27:54 PM): Madeline says hi and that she feels stupid that she just figured out who your brother was Nail60 (8:28:39 PM): why? Ivoire Menteur (8:28:56 PM): I don't know Nail60 (8:29:36 PM): She took the stuff i said to seriously on the bus today i think... Ivoire Menteur (8:30:19 PM): I don't know what you guys are talking about Ivoire Menteur (8:30:21 PM): but it's funny Nail60 (8:30:29 PM): What/ Ivoire Menteur (8:30:32 PM): like a cell phone made of gummi bears Nail60 (8:30:31 PM): ? Ivoire Menteur (8:30:35 PM): fkljsf Ivoire Menteur (8:30:39 PM): life is hilarious Nail60 (8:30:52 PM): Who is this? Ivoire Menteur (8:31:07 PM): me Nail60 (8:31:36 PM): leah/ Nail60 (8:31:37 PM): ? Ivoire Menteur (8:31:43 PM): yes Ivoire Menteur (8:31:47 PM): the one and only Ivoire Menteur (8:32:04 PM): I am myself and you are yourself and we are friends somehow Nail60 (8:32:26 PM): What the hell... Nail60 (8:32:28 PM): lol Ivoire Menteur (8:32:42 PM): yoooooure no big deeallll Ivoire Menteur (8:32:48 PM): I'm really feeling some Nirvana Nail60 (8:33:00 PM): XD Ivoire Menteur (8:34:28 PM): but really. Ivoire Menteur (8:34:38 PM): DO YOU THINK I NEED HELP Nail60 (8:34:48 PM): noo! Ivoire Menteur (8:35:00 PM): hahahahaahahhhahah Nail60 (8:35:04 PM): You being paranoid! Nail60 (8:35:07 PM): DX Ivoire Menteur (8:35:18 PM): I'm kidding Nail60 (8:35:42 PM): Ok. lol Ivoire Menteur (8:36:59 PM): that was a strange conversatin. Ivoire Menteur (8:37:03 PM): conversation Nail60 (8:37:18 PM): yeah... Na!l · Fri Nov 09, 2007 @ 01:39am · 2 Comments


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Fri Nov 09, 2007 @ 02:27am

*cracks up laughing insanely on the floor*
You two are so funny. You're perfect for each other. xDDDD!!!!!!!

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Fri Nov 09, 2007 @ 02:50am

You just said that. lol We're good friends.

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