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october 19, 2007

*sighs* i have not replied for a week. i so hate brooks. i had 2 write a paper on a picture and it had to be like super detailed. my was like 2 pages. hahaha. anyway. it was the picture of all my best friends at holy name and we were sitting in the house thingamijger. i rememebred that day and wrote it as my paper. i hope i got an a. its language arts. my best and fav class. i swear ppl if u try 2 say anything like yelling at me 2 say to stop being depressed, i'll get pissed. it doesnt work. it makes it worse. i swear i want brooks academy to like ******** fall apart. i want 2 get back in holy name. i miss every1. and i mean it. i mean, i have quiet enough friends at brooks but tsill. only 2 of them really no me. thats kennidy and samantha. every1 at holy name knows me and my family.

i hate this family. i am so isolated. i have 2 ******** take care of my brother. just cause he's sick. when im sick. its just another work day for me. nobody helps me. thats s**t. i hurt my head on a cabniet and said why the hell is that open and i got yelled at. anyway. my love is not very good. i swear i am going to like crawl in a hole and die alone or something. and nobody would miss me. i'll nvr find love. it seems.


so why cant my family realize how miserbale i am? they dont seem 2 care. they called me goth though 2day. i explained im not goth. but punk. do they udnerstand? no. they nvr do. i swear basketball is more important than me in this ******** house. nobody gives a s**t about me. im the last 1 any1 thinks about or helps in this family. i only have my family it seems. this life of my is ******** crappy. i cant see my true friends. i i try 2 tell my mom she'll just put me back in counseling and i dont want that. xP. it wont work. and it might get me 2 actually cut myself.

signed,
brandon