Alright, well... Here's an update on the life of Cynic.
Jane and I are still on a 'break' as far as I know. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. My brain is mixed up so much about the whole thing. Part of me loves her and wants her to take me back, part of me wants nothing to do with her. All of me knows that we had a great, if not perfect, relationship... And I think that she was foolish for throwing it out like that for her reasons. But eh, she's a child and she has quite a few years ahead of her before she has to be serious about life. But I still worry about her.
I'm still unemployed and I'm not in college yet. I'm mostly content with the way I'm living right now, but I feel like I have no purpose. No reason to live. I kind of want to college mainly so that I can hopefully make new friends that I can talk to and see in person... As well as hopefully meet some girls closer to my own age. But then... I don't know if that will be easy for me. I'm shy, withdrawn, boring, and I can't make conversation... I'm a schizoid. Without that, college will most likely be such a pain for me that I won't even try for my potential.
To be honest, I rather just be through with this game and not have to deal with anything anymore.
On a slightly better note, I recently purchased quite a few games, including the recently released Portal and Team Fortress 2. They are great fun and I'm addicted even though I barely ever liked video games let alone computer games. If anyone reading this plays Team Fortress 2, Counter-Strike: Source, or Day of Defeat: Source, tell me and maybe we can play together on a server. Although I haven't given Day of Defeat a try yet... So I'll have to learn.
Well, there you go. Another update on my pathetic, meaningless existence.
Jane and I are still on a 'break' as far as I know. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. My brain is mixed up so much about the whole thing. Part of me loves her and wants her to take me back, part of me wants nothing to do with her. All of me knows that we had a great, if not perfect, relationship... And I think that she was foolish for throwing it out like that for her reasons. But eh, she's a child and she has quite a few years ahead of her before she has to be serious about life. But I still worry about her.
I'm still unemployed and I'm not in college yet. I'm mostly content with the way I'm living right now, but I feel like I have no purpose. No reason to live. I kind of want to college mainly so that I can hopefully make new friends that I can talk to and see in person... As well as hopefully meet some girls closer to my own age. But then... I don't know if that will be easy for me. I'm shy, withdrawn, boring, and I can't make conversation... I'm a schizoid. Without that, college will most likely be such a pain for me that I won't even try for my potential.
To be honest, I rather just be through with this game and not have to deal with anything anymore.
On a slightly better note, I recently purchased quite a few games, including the recently released Portal and Team Fortress 2. They are great fun and I'm addicted even though I barely ever liked video games let alone computer games. If anyone reading this plays Team Fortress 2, Counter-Strike: Source, or Day of Defeat: Source, tell me and maybe we can play together on a server. Although I haven't given Day of Defeat a try yet... So I'll have to learn.
Well, there you go. Another update on my pathetic, meaningless existence.
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