You know how things keep changing in your life even if you don't want them to, right? How about all those moments that you're in the middle of a crossroad and you just have to make a decision because right behind you's a truck without breaks that's about to run you over? Well... that's where I am... But I'd rather have the truck run me over.
Life is just incomprehensible, that's as far as I know. And, besides all the conflicts that are in the world, the one I hate the most is the internal one. Because it's with me, it's deep there inside, still lingering inside of you until you solve it or you just let it show.
I have... well... maybe had... a girlfriend... We sort of found some problems between us... But, I know I brought those problems, because they were inside of me. It was insecurity, it was confusion, it was indecisiveness. And, or course, it was me. I always feared I might be the one doing the break-up... Perhaps it was because I was the one that did ask the question, I was the one to first kiss her, the one to first really kiss her, and with that the first one to break her heart...
Technically we're still a couple. We haven't talked much since the incident though... I haven't felt like it, too much things going through my head, future, past and present. All of that's made me reach a conclusion... It's better if we're not gf/bf no more. As hurtful as it may seem to write it, I just can't help but realize that's the truth... I know that things will never be the same... I wish we could go back to being the good friends we were, but as long as we can still be simple and plain friends I'd be glad.
My decision... Well... I'm still going with it, even if it does hurt. But I find it that it won't hurt as much as we'd suffer if we're still together... Guess I ended up in the fear I had from the beginning... There's nothing much I can do now... We've got to spread our wings as separate beings...
We've got to turn a new leaf... Regardless of what everyone else thinks...
"The greates thing you'll ever learn is just to love an be loved in return..."
What happens when you don't know which kind of love you're giving?
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Well, first of all, hi everyone. Here I'll talk about what mostly happens in my life at school... at home... at anywhere. That is if I just feel like writing here...
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I'd be non conforming too if I were just like you
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