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Have you ever started on a new med that you have never taken before? In the vain hope if fixing something that seem to be unfixible? That is what going on with me right now. I am tripping really bad and i don't like it. Please note that i have NEVER tried any elegal drugs and i'm never going to. The medication i am taking was prescribed to me for "depression". I'm using the word depression lightly cause i really dont think i'm depressed. I myself think im just a bit sad cause i lost the one thing i love more than anything else and i'm never going to get him back. My doctor think i should be over it seeing its been a year. I guess it cause to her he was just a cat the she knows nothing about. but to me, he was a friend when i truly need one.

but any was. lets get but on topic, My med. like i said before I'm trippen. I'm shacking really badly, I'm shooted that i can even type. My ears are ringing, and i'm not talking about a little ring i mean a painful ring that make you put your hands over your ears and cry ringing and when their not ringing i can't hear very well every thing seems fuzzy and unclear.But thats not all! My head is spining. If i stanned up i get really dizzy. I'm not hungery, but if i do eat i feel sick. so best not to eat. ever drinking makes my sick, i've been sipping the same 8oz green tea for the last couple of hours and i'm not even half was done. but hey i can do with losing couple pounds, like 40.... I'm also having hot flash, witch are driving me up a wall. cause im sweeting madly and i hate sweeting. oh, i almost forgot the headackes....

I'm also on sleeping pills. that was why i went to the doctors in the first place. I'm having sleeping problem i just can't get my mind to shut off. so i was just laying in bed with my mind shoting here and there. tell i can't ever remember how i got there in the first place. then look i have two hours before i need to get out of bed and get meself to class...i hate morning classies... But yes sleeping problems. so i'm taking pills for it. hey they help me get to sleep, it's just i dont stay asleep. and it doesn't help that i have been waking up in a cool sweet and feel sick to the point of blacking out. and the freaky weird dreams that i've been having don't help ether... I don't know if its the sleeping pills or the depression pills or a mix of the two. but let me tell you these dream i've been having are like what the ********. In one i loss all the hair on half my head and had big zits growing all over me head but the freaky part was that when i popped my dream zit. it wasn't the normal white stuff that popped out, it was maggots. living moving maggots. lucky i'm not scare of maggots eh? I've had other but that is the only one i can really remember. but i know most of them where freaky too.

So needless to say sleeping pills not working and depression pills are making me more depressed be making me feel ill and i wasn't ever depress to begin with. Whats a kid to do? Maybe i'll go try to drown meself in me bath tube that doesn't even hold water....