now before you red this i just wanna let you know that my head has been confused 4 the past like 4 days so i'm probably gonna type something a little bit off from what actually happened..ok..good! Ok so now i told my guy friend that i was going to stay with my boy friend and then he threatened to kill himself. When he said "Ok good bye forever" i was just like "....wait what?" and then he went into kkrock13's (another guy friend of mine) bedroom, got a Nintendo DS lite charging chord , tied it around his neck and pulled as hard as he could. kkrock13 grabbed my guy friend and pulled his arms around behind his back. I un-rapped the DS chord from his neck. For the rest of the day my guy friend kept on trying 2 kill himself. He tried using like a hammer, a DS charging chord, and he even tried using 1 of those little sharp poker thingies 4 the fire place. once my guy friend's mom pulled up he grabbed his backpack and DS lite and headed 4 the door. I grabbed him by his shoulder. He stopped and turned around. i said "Promise me you won't kill yourself over the weekend" he looked at me, rolled his eyes and walked out the door.
kkrock13 stood there in concern. "Think he'll be ok kkrock13?" kkrock walked over 2 me and said "I hope so" the next day i went back over 2 kkrock13's place 2 hang 4 a few hours. after a few hours of video gaming with kkrock13 and his brother, i went home. That night i got a youtube message from my guy friend. it said "Will you go out with me?" i replied with "You know i have a boy friend" (and just a reminder at this point it was like..11:00 at night or something) he replied with "Ok good bye forever" i didn't read that message until like 5 mins after he sent it, but after i read it my heart jump into my throat. I made a new message saying "Listen i love you so much! god will you please go out with me???" he replied like the second after he read that message. after that he went 2 bed WITHOUT telling me -_- so i sat and waited until like 5:00 in the morning and he STILL didn't reply! i was like "What the heck?" and then i logged off. but as i laid there in my bed trying 2 go 2 sleep i started 2 think about what i just did and why he wasn't saying anything back.
"Did i send the message in time?" i tossed and turned for about a half an hour or so. my dreams were so small and detailed that everything was just a big jumbled up blur! the next morning at about 7:35 in the morning i ran 2 the computer, signed in 2 EVERYTHING he could possibly message me with! And i mean like like EVERYTHING, like Gaia online, my e-mail, Youtube, Neopets (even though he doesn't have a neopets account...i was VERY confused at the time), Club penguin, Dragon fable, Runescape, seriously though every single mother firgin website i could fine (well that he had an account on) i went there!! i signed into like 10 different websites or so. At this point i had like..10 tabs up. after about five mins or so i called kkrock13, got my guy friend's phone number and then i called my guy friend. My guy friend's mom picked up. "Hi" i said. "Sorry but he's still sleeping" "Oh i said" "Bye"...i almost forgot 2 say bye. "Oh right, bye" i hung up the phone an sat on r mini couch. a sighed in relief. Not long after my guy friend's number popped up in my caller ID. "H-hello?" i said still in shock that my guy friend didn't reply. "Hey it's me!" it was my guy friend. "God why the heck didn't you reply??" he slightly laughed. -_- "What? why did you decide not 2 kill yourself? i mean i'[m REALLY dang happy that you're not dead but still" even though i couldn't see him, i guessed 2 myself in my mind and thought he was smiling (as he almost always does). "Well i was going 2 but then i got 2 tired and went 2 bed" i glared at the phone and then i remembered that he couldn't see me. "WHAT!?!?!?!?!?" i got really mad at him (as you can probably already tell). after a few mins of talking 2 him (and eating 2 waffles..which..almost fell on the floor) him and i said bye and hung up r phones. after a while i calmed down quite a bit and called my boy friend. now this part is kinda blury still so yeah you've been warned! anyways. after a while of talking 2 my boy friend him and i got into a fight, sadly my phone battery died (that dumb piece of crap) and he thought i ended r relationship by hanging up on him after a few seconds after the fight was over. my guy friend told me after a while that right after my phone battery died that my boy friend sent my guy friend and e-mail threw youtube (which had seriously freaked me out, my guy friend and boy friend have been rivals 4 the past like..2 weeks, but anyways) the e-mail said "Dude!! her and i just broke up!! make your move!!" i couldn't believe this. after my phone battery recharged i called my guy friend. he explained it 2 me again. after that i called my boy friend. "What??? no! i didn't break up with you!!" i explained 2 my boy friend. "Oh! you didn't?" he asked in confusion. "No i didn't!" him and i talked and i did break p with him after him and i talked about that e-mail he sent my guy friend. that day i went over 2 kkrock13's house (again) and played 4 a while. the next day i went over 2 kkrock13's house this time it being the 3rd day in a row. and guess who was there, yup that's right my guy friend was there. me, kkrock13, and my guy friend all had a talk about what had happened 2 days ago. finally i asked out my guy friend (oops) and he said yes (duh). after a few hours (about 6 really) i asked him what would happen if i broke up with him, like what he would do. he said that he wouldn't kill himself, so pretty much nothing besides the fact that i broke up with him. i said "Oh! really?? you wouldn't kill yourself??" he looked at me and said "No i wouldn't" so then i said "Well in that case, i' m breaking up with you" he said "Ok then" and we all went back 2 the computers. after that my guy friend went home before i did so kkrock13 and i got 2 hang 4 a while before my mom showed up. once my mom did show up she called 2 me from the other room. "Coming!" i said logging off of the computer. "I hope he's ok" kkrock13 said 2 me. "Yeah me 2" i said. i walked out of the and said bye with a wave. "Bye" he said waving back. my mom drove me home as i explained what had been going on 4 the past 3 days. I haven't talked 2 anyone today, seeing as it's only like..8:32 in the morning. well comment if you can. see ya!
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