hey everybody! it's me..again...for the like 4th time...huh..well anyways
i just wanted 2 say that i think i'm loosing 1 of my best guy friends V_V
it's that guy that said he loves me. i love him 2 but like a brother not a boy friend. i thought about asking him out not long ago. i he deserves a chance but right now i just can't. jeez i feel horrible about doing all that crap 2 him V_V a few months ago i think it was like..last January yeah it was! anyways i had the same thing happen 2 me...i mean that i loved a guy (i might have loved him..idk) and he wouldn't even consider being with me (well you know being as in bf and gf) *sigh* i feel bad about it and i feel terrible that what happened 2 me had 2 happen 2 a good friend of but i couldn't control the future, what ever happens, happens and there's rlly not much anyone can do about it. i've been trying my best 2 not feel bad but i just can't help it! he's such a nice guy..no a nice person and i hate what happened. i mean well..i don't wanna break up with my bf any time soon but i still feel sorry about putting my guy friend threw all that sad if only...if only...*sigh* i don't rlly know what i wish i could do anymore. i considered dumping my bf and then getting together with my guy friend but that didn't happen. i also considered breaking up with my boy friend and not getting together with my guy friend but that would hurt all 3 of us. UGH!!! i hate my life so much -_- anyways...um...WAFFLES!!! biggrin .....okay well that didn't help -_- hm...well...i guess i'm doomed 4 all my life huh? hm
okay then ppls. gee u all are a lot of help:p jk, huh i guess idk what 2 do at this point confused JMIGHBGBGJHKVJTGJTUCMHORENVNTHDYSBVWKITJVHBDKJFKJYJYJ
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okay screaming randomness things doesn't help either -_- great. well guess what i did this morning? yup u guessed it! i woke up! jeez i'm an idiot -_- idk how the heck i'm gonna be able 2 have fun at the dance 2night -_- wait didn't i tell u ppls?guess not, well there's this big church dance thingy at my bff's church, (it only happens once a year) i'm not a member of the church or ne-thing but they invited my anyways. lucky me. jk. i'm happy 2 go it's just that i'm not sure if going would be fun or if i would just make trouble (on accident), yeah so srry this journal entry is so freak'in long. i'm having fun typing 2day. razz . i'm over at a friend's house, where 2 of my friends r. yay friends! razz . 1 of my friends is playing he nintendo DS lite (which in that she's playing Final fantasy tactics) and my other friend is playing on the PS 2 (which on that she's playing Crash bandacoot racing) and i'm sitting here at the computer typing 2 all u ppls.....again srry this is so long!
peace ppls! *makes peace sign with right hand and fingers*
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