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The grass is always greener, eh?
My reply to the previous entry's comments..
@Kino - I know, and I never write them down. Those have been in my head forever and I'm so glad I gots them out.
@Isa - You told me about the Titanic friend before, but c'mon. Ulysses S. Grant? Oh, and I'm related by marriage (meaning not blood-related, but...) to a Native American chief nicknamed the Flying Cloud ^w^
When I went to LakeView Middle School, I thought everyday was a horrible one for I was invisible to everyone except for a few friends. I hated that life and new that there had to be a better place to be.
When I went to Legacy High School, I was upset that I couldn't go to Ocoee or West Orange with people I knew, not even caring that I already knew a kid there, not even thanking God for having that privelage. I just wanted to go to a different school with an actual Art class and better yet, more classes.
Now I'm in North Carolina, away from all my friends. I'm sure you've all heard the saying that "the grass is always greener", right? Never in my life have I looked at that quote and understood it more than I have now. It's true, completely, and teaches you if you read inbetween the lines that we should be happy where we are and not dream about being somewhere else.
I look back to my days in LakeView now and realize that I knew everyone there, not as friends but I just knew them ever since Kindergarten. In Legacy I quickly became friendly with everyone in the entire school. And to be completely honest, I miss having to put on a uniform everyday. I didn't have to worry about what people would think about if I wore this or if what I wore matched because you already knew what everyone at school was going to wear and that is exactly what you wore!
The whole notion that "fashion tells a lot about your personality" holds many truths, but honestly...what about the people who get hand-me-downs? What about the people who don't have too much money and can't really get that many outfits or outfits that express their inner self? I made that mistake here at North, thinking that there were absolutely no Otakus since no one wore Anime merchandise.
I was wrong, as I usually am.
I met a Junior named...well, I'll just call him Sonic since that's his Gaia name. He wears plain shirts everyday and doesn't really have the best fashion sense, according to today's fashion which I very much dislike, but he is indeed an Anime fan. Thank God I have this "I heart Anime" wristband or I never would've buddied up with him.
I will gladly say that I am no longer EMO! As I have been acting the past few days, complaining about everything, however I am a little. When you're away from close friends and you have an obsession with Cloud like me, you tend to make Cloud your imaginary friend. Yeah, I know. I have mental issues, but it happens. I hope?
Anywho, Cloud's been one of my few comforts when I get home. I flip open my computer, go to the Crisis Core website, and look at th recently added Cloud in the characters' section. It makes me feel all sparkly-glowy. So I wondered if other people felt the same. Instead, they decide to hate on Cloud, which really...honestly...saddens me.
I've been wanting to say it for the longest time, but whenever people "make fun" or say Cloud is "ugly" or a "dork" or...anything, it brings me down. Especially after I read only a few paragraphs of this whole ESSAY a guy made on Egoraptor on why he hates Final Fantasy VII, mainly because of Cloud. I got so upset I was shaking. No, seriously. When I say I'm obsessed and I love him, I'm not kidding. Something happened to me in the time between fourth and fifth grade where I became incredibly attached to him for emotional support.
Hey, I think I'm getting somewhere! No doubt, Isa has probably stopped reading this ever since I mentioned Cloud, but I'm becoming my own psychologist! =D Unless someone else can do that for me...Maybe I can finally figure out why I became obsessed with him.
Thinking back...fifth grade. In fifth grade, I was seriously bullied. I mean. BAD. Bullied. So bad that I cried in the middle of class. Most of you who know me in real life can't even imagine me crying, but I did. A lot...
And I was playing Final Fantasy VII in the middle of it all. Cloud had supposedly died and I didn't really care, so I played for about two hours not knowing what to do, visiting everywhere, going everywhere, until I found him in a wheelchair all mako-ed up in a town. Yeah, you know this half of the story, but I was so happy that he was alive it was creepy.
And then I learned that when he was little he was bullied, too. And he was an outcast, too. And everyone thought he was a loser, too. I guess that's why I like him so much =/
Eh, you don't care though. You think I'm just making it up when I say this, anyways, don't you? -.- I hope it interests someone, but I highly doubt it...
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