Hoooly s**t.
I haven't felt this way since...well since I was very young and my brother had a bipolar episode...The feeling you get where your brain just stops and everything just seems fake.
Yeah, well...we got Axel. I'm glad we did. I'm still optimistic about this whole thing because honestly, everything works out in the end if you really think about it. Time heals wounds. People move on.
I really hate people though.
You see, Axel got here. It was good. Everyone was happy.
A few flaws though. Even though Axel left a note to her parents, they still called and texted like crazy, pleading for her to come back. They also called my father for some reason, who of course flipped out. He called my mom, lectured her...and he also apparently told my step-mom who also lectured my mom. Ridiculous. It's really not their problem. They have nothing to do with it. That's what my mom told them and they understood. Hopefully they won't take it out on me. I honestly don't have much to do with this either, except for being this "escapee's" significant other.
So Zexion's mother was also freaking out. She had no idea where she was. She left a NOTE on my door asking us where she was.
So Zexion sent her a text message, saying she'd talk to her at 5.
She wrote her a letter instead, saying everything she thought.
So the three of us drove over to her house to drop the letter off. Her mom wasn't there, but she came as soon as we went in the house and told Zexion to stay in the house.
Okay. Zexion's 18. Telling her to stay in the house is holding her against her will. They screamed at her for a bit. I didn't speak up until Zexion's grandmother came up and slapped her.
People don't listen, especially Zexion's mom.
I wasn't even yelling or anything. Just talking. Telling the truth. She claimed everything Zexion ever told me about her was a lie.
Bullshit.
I was THERE. I have SEEN how she treats Zexion. I'm not stupid.
So Zexion's grandma ******** grabbed me and Axel pushed her off. They called us queers and s**t...and she pushed us into the car and told us to go.
A little more colorful than that though...
So we had no idea what the ******** to do.
There was no service. I couldn't call anyone. So we walked down the road a little bit so I could at least call my mom. She told me to call the police. I did. My mom came to pick us up before then though...only Axel and I.
We headed to my house to get Axel's stuff. Zexion called me while I was over there, really...REALLY crying. He came to our house and we drove to the hospital to drop them off...
And now I feel like s**t again =.=
I don't really blame myself. I honestly did everything I could. I blame Zexion's family mostly. Not Zexion. Not at all.
I just don't understand. I'm pretty sure most of the reason they were so ******** angry was because of Axel and I.
Why?
Why would you generate so much hatred over something like that? Over ANYTHING?
I feel sick.
I feel like I've done something wrong.
I just don't know what.
I want to be with Axel now, but...I can't...
...things get worse before they get better...right?
I really hope so. If it gets any worse, I might go insane.
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