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my life really sucks right now,

friends, school, love....it's all going down hill and barely going up.

Today I went to a friends house and we had just met a new friend named Steven, but with my anxiety, I practically have an anxiety attack while there. This is probably why I have such a hard time meeting new people.

I remember him asking me to sit down next to him and I could only shake my head and rear back into the living room to watch from afar. And this attack kept going until he left. I wonder if he thought I was weird for acting so bazzare around him. I feel really bad...and a little ashamed that even with the help I'm getting it doesn't seem to be helping me in anyway.

What if I really liked a guy and well he asked me to sit with him...I wouldn't be able to because I would be to scared to sit down and have an anxiety attack right there...oh....what am I going to do...