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If life wasn't cheesy enough [haha, pun]
Cheesy's Cheesy Life #44 -Poem....-
All I am is a failure in your eyes.
First, my clothes aren't tight enough.
Now, my clothes are too tight for your liking.
I can never be the perfection of what you could never be.

Mommy, what happened to all of the love?
Mommy, what happened to all of the hugs?
Mommy, what did I do so wrong to make you hate my so?
Mommy, aren't I still your little girl?

I still cry, mommy, these tears were never fake.
I'm still scared, mommy, I scream to hide all of my pain.
I need you, mommy, but not the one that you have become.
I want you, mommy, but all of my efforts were in vain.

Mommy, what happened to all of the love?
Mommy, what happened to all of the hugs?
Mommy, am I that bad that I deserve all of this abuse?
Mommy, am I not allowed to love you?

All I am is failure in your eyes.
First, I put up an effort to make my grades up.
Now, I got A's, B's, and C's but those two F's made you yell.
I can never be the perfection of what you could never be.

Mommy, what happened to all of the love?
Mommy, what happened to all of the hugs?
Mommy, what happened to hugging me when I was scared?
Mommy, where was the love when I needed you there?

I'm real, mommy, though you seem to forget I'm there.
I hurt, mommy, with all the pain that I shouldn't be feeling.
It's too late, mommy, you pushed me so far away.
My heart aches, mommy, for the mommy who used to care.

Mommy, what happened to all of the love?
Mommy, what happened to all of the hugs?
Mommy, am I just little whore to you?
Mommy, what is it you want me to do?

All I am is failure in your eyes.
First, you trusted me more and more.
Now, you think I'm an orgy addicted whore.
I can never be the perfection of what you could never be.

Mommy, what happened to all of the love?
Mommy, what happened to all of the hugs?
Mommy, mommy, where did you go?
Mommy, mommy, this new you just can't be so.

Mommy, mommy, I'm scared you're going to hit me again.
Mommy, mommy, all this abuse is too much too take.
Mommy, mommy, why can't you just throw me into the wall?
Mommy, mommy, just get it all overwith, please.

Mommy, mommy, I want to move so far away.
Mommy, mommy, I loved you and so I stayed.
Mommy, mommy, why can't you love me too?
Mommy, mommy, you have a daughter too.

All I am is failure in your eyes.
First, I was just your little angel.
Now, only daddy believes I have a halo.
I can never be the perfection of what you could never be.

Mommy, mommy, are these tears not real?
Mommy, mommy, are you too blind to see what is concealed?
Mommy, mommy, stop blaming me.
Mommy, mommy, I had to set him free.

Why is it my fault, mommy, I was only trying to help.
Why I am I so bad, mommy, I wanted him to be okay.
It hurts too much, mommy, I don't know if I can bare it.
I'm sorry, mommy, I had to send him away.

Al I am is failure in your eyes.
First, you held me close and helped.
Now, you want to just throw me away.
I can never be the perfection of what you could never be.

Mommy, mommy, why does it hurt so much?
Mommy, mommy, why are you doing this to me?
Mommy, mommy, don't you love me anymore?
Mommy, mommy, we used to be so close.

Do you know how alone I am, mommy?
My friends give me very little comfort.
I haven't told them anything, mommy.
How much you've hurt me inside.
I can't bring myself to tell them, mommy.
I'm too afraid I'll just cry.
I want to tell someone mommy,
Maybe I should tell who replies.

Mommy, mommy, my pain is for everyone to see.
Mommy, mommy, don't you see them looking at me?
Mommy, mommy, it's all over for whatever we had.
Mommy, mommy, though I smile outside, inside I'm sad.

Mommy, mommy, why couldn't you have left me alone?
Mommy, mommy, don't you know why I never come home?
Mommy, mommy, I'm safer with him than I am with you.
Mommy, mommy, he would never hurt my like you do.
Mommy, mommy, you're more a whore than I ever will be.
Mommy, mommy, why do you assume so much of me.
Mommy, mommy, I'm safer out of your reach.
Mommy, mommy, you've run out of stuff to preach.

Mommy, the one with the red hair treats me better than you.
He listens to my stories and he doesn't make me like you do.
Mommy, he cares about me more than you can ever know.
He actually loves me and only me, not like you would ever tell.
Mommy, you loved me for your blood and not for my soul.

Mommy, the one with the black eyes treats me better than you.
She confronts me with my problems and helps me on what to do.
Mommy, she loves me for being me and has for many years.
She's there for me whenever I need a friend, not like you would ever know.
Mommy, you loved me for your blood and not for my soul.

Mommy, the one with the deep blue eyes treats me better than you.
He holds me when I'm crying and he completely understands.
Mommy, though as much as you assume, he cares for my needs more than you'll ever know.
He loves me as a whole, my heart and my soul with all of my flaws.
Mommy, you loved me for your blood and not for my soul.

Mommy, the one with the blonde curls treats me better than you.
She sticks around when I'm lonely and have nothing to do.
Mommy, she's there when no one is more than you'll ever know.
She makes me laugh and goofs off when I just need to let go.
Mommy, you loved me for your blood and not for my soul.

Mommy, the one with the large eyes treats me better than you.
She knows when to be helpful when we are at a lost of what to do.
Mommy, she makes me laugh more than you'll ever know.
She jokes in a nice way and brightens the atmosphere.
Mommy, you loved me for your blood and not for my soul.

Mommy, mommy, I feel like I'm fading away.
Aren't you going to help me, mommy?
Mommy, you used to always be there.
Please, mommy, your pain hurts.

Maybe I should sleep with him, mommy.
You think I'm so much of a whore, why not?
Maybe I should lose my innocence, mommy.
You're my influence and you lost it much before me.
Maybe I should let him in me, mommy.
But I won't, mommy, but not for your reasons.
I don't want to be you, mommy.
I don't want to be the b***h you have become.

So, mommy, when you're up at night, years from now.
Just thinking about how you lost your daughter.
Wondering how my life flashed before your eyes before long.
How, just like that, I was gone.
Just remember, mommy, that I always did love you.
It wasn't me, mommy, who messed us all up.
It was you, mommy, who hurt me so bad.
Mommy, you hurt me in every way you could have.

So, mommy, when you're up at night, years from now.
Wondering why I won't let you near any of my children.
Just thinking about how much you wish you were apart of my life.
How, just like that, I'm a mom.
Just remember, mommy, you should have treated me nice.
It wasn't me, mommy, who wanted it to end up this way.
It was you, mommy, who made my self esteem so low.
Mommy, you nearly killed your only daughter you'll ever have.

Mommy, mommy, why do you cry when it is I who was hurt?
Mommy, mommy, why do you smile when you see my tears flow?
Mommy, mommy, is it so fun to hurt me every chance you get?
Mommy, mommy, what happened to my mommy?
What happened to the mommy who loved me?
What happened to the mommy who cared?

These tears I cry are real.
They're suppressed tears from over the years.
I loved you mommy, I loved you.
Now? I'm not so sure, mommy.

All I am is failure in your eyes.
I can never be the perfection of what you could never be.
Mommy, why can't you love me?





 
 
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