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First off, Dakota is a jerk a** b***h. Yes, he cheated on Devon with me. Yes, he called me a liar. Yes, he is a ********. Anyways, I don't care anymore. Seriously, I don't. Devon, you can HAVE him. I don't care. It's ALL yours I don't even care at all. I can go to sleep at night knowing I have done nothing wrong. He will go to sleep at night with regret and self sympathy. Though, it is a path he has chosen on his own. I see it all as his loss. I finally see what everyone was telling me. Dakota isn't who I thought he was. He isn't the person that I was in love with. He is a conceited, selfish jerk and has no regards to anyones feelings or needs but his own. For the record, if that is what Devon wants that is what she can have. Because in this moment in time, I hate him. He lied to her just like he lied to me. I have much reason to believe that he cheated on me just like he cheated on her. He abused me mentally, emotionally, and took advantage of me. Therfore, I hate him. I can't help it. I do.

Now, off the subject of Dakota and onto my grandmother. My grandma was put in the hospital on Saturday. She got up that morning and she couldn't breathe so they admitted her to the hospital. They diagnosed her with Pneumonia and at first they thought she would be okay just wearing a bi-pap (A mask that goes on her face) she really didn't like it because she was claustrophobic and didn't like that thing on her face. Finally, we talked her into it. Then, yesterday at about noon she started to get really bad. My Uncle Larry (grandma's husband, my grandfather who died two years ago's brother) called us and said that we should get down here because she took a turn for the worst and they called my aunt whom the whole family is currently pissed at. The story on that is when my grandfather died he had said before he died that my grandma might hook up with Larry. She laughed at the time. But four months after his death she was so lonely and sick of being sad she called Larry. He came down and they got married behind everyone in the family's back. Of course, it hurt. It hurt us all. Everyone was upset but my family made adjustments and got over it. Carleen, my aunt, however, didn't. She still hasn't. When my grandfather was sick (he had lung cancer) they were being swamped with bills and they couldn't afford them. The only way they could get midicare was if they were to sign over the land TEMPORARILY to my aunt and my mom. When my grandfather died it was to go 40 aches to my mom and 40 to my aunt. My mom has Muscular Dystrophy and worked hard to get her social security because she cannot get around. So, she didn't want to lose her benefits so she just let Carleena sign it all in her name. Now, Carleena refuses to give the land back. Now, back to the story of my grandmother. After we arrived my grandma kept getting worse and worse so they decided that in order to save her life they were gonna have to put her on the Ventilator for a few days so she could gain her strength back because she was working so hard to breathe. Yes, Carleena was there and for a while things were okay. We all visited thought it KILLED Carleena to see the whole family joking back and forth. Considering, she isn't exactly a part of our circle but she continues to make that choice for herself. Anyways, the doctors and they are taking her to ICU. They tak her down there and everyone wishes that they could see her and say good-bye and stuff. We are all standing by the door because the waiting room is FULL. So, Carleena keeps trying to go in. Larry stopped her once and said that she wasn't going in there alone. Before, Carleena ever showed up my grandma told her Carleena was not to be the one in control of the situation and that if any decisions were to be made that she couldn't Larry was to make them. Besides, that is a husband and wife rights. So, the Nurse actually comes and gets Carleena. That sets everyone off because no one knows what she is doing and why she is getting treated differently. Carleena works in the hospital so she usually butts on in and gets in information she needs though, the doctors think she is relaying it back to us. She isn't. Apparently, she pulled a doctor aside and asked if she could see her before she went under. So, after my mom and Larry raised hell for a while the doctor whom my aunt Carleena works with came and spoke to us. He told us that Carleena had asked for 5 mins alone and that we could all have those 5 mins as well. We said that is what we wanted and mom said she still wanted to talk to human services. So, once she talked to them they agreed the the husbands rights had been violated and that the nurses were wrong and that he would speak to them. So, Carleena is pissed cause Larry has tired to stop her from seeing her mother...(my a**). So, we all got in and got our five mins and mom got to talk to Human Serivices. Then once she comes out Carleena is fired up and ready to argue. So, mom stands there and argues a while but then says, "What will it take for you to get over this and move on?" Carleena flips her head back and says, "Nothing, nothing you can ever do with change the way thing are because of what you have done!" So, mom says, "Whatever." We all go and sit in the empty waiting room. We are sitting for about 5 mins then suddenly this security guard comes in. He says, "So, Theresa (my mom) I hear you've been causing some problems." Mom was like, "Excuse me?" He was like, "You've been making some noise so what is this all about?" Mom is like, "Uh, your about a half hour late. I don't think that any of this is any of your business." His eyes light up, "Well, I think it is!" My mom goes, "Uh, no." He goes, "Well, if you keep giving me that attitude I'll have to kick you out of here." My mom goes, "I have no attitude I'm telling you that it is over and it is none of your business." He goes, "I think it is now what is the story." That was it. All I could handle I had an adrenalin going and I just said, "So, you wanna hear our whole ******** family history? Where would you like me to start?" He tensed up and started to realize just how far he pushed the envelope and that even the kids were getting pissed at him. So, he kinda changed his attitude got up and shook all of our hands. Then, started a lot more calm. He began to pry but not like before. We told him the story and he said that if there are anymore problems to come get a hold of him. But exactly what gave him the guts to come into a ICU room where tentions and emotions are hight enough already and act like he gonna kick us all outta there. I still think he's a little ******** face. Anyways, that was my night. My mom is at the hospital right now she says things are going okay...I hope she is right.