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Wow, it's been a while. The most major even that happend I shall tell. Well, the day after Dakota found a fascination with cybering with this one chick. I asked him for his password just so I could check up on him. Well, he wouldn't give it. So, that worried me well, lets just say his security questions were a piece of cake. I was in within 5 mins. Well, he obviously hadn't learned his lesson after the the last time. He was cybering in PMs. I was so pissed/hurt. I called him and tried to confront him but I couldn't think of anything to say. It was like word vomit. So, I sent him a PM over Gaia. He responded with "Oh, don't leave I'll kill myself." Which in turn was actually being more/just as heartless as cheating on me with a girl over the internet. So, I just basically blew him off. I went for a walk and then to my grandma's he said stuff that I will never forget. Cheri also talked to him once she realized he was actually sorry she helped him. I'm actually kind of glad it happed in a way. At least now I shouldn't be worried that he isn't really all that into me because I know he is. Today, I CLEANED house and helped mom with some stuff outside. At the moment I am at a friends house no one is sleeping and it is about 4:30...anyways, I need to go to bed soon with or without the rest if they want to do somthin' to me in my sleep let 'em I'll have my revenge! I need to go to bed cause my over protective mom HAS to come pick me the ******** up at ******** 11 AM...which really really really really SUCKS! stare Anyways, I miss Dakota. Haven't gotten to talk to him in forever 'cause he didn't get to go to Youth on Thursday. Gusta and Gunner both went! It was totally cool! We got in The trunk of Gunners car and drove around town. We left the lid open and we said it was like a redneck convertalbe. It was alot of fun. I saw my cousin there. The one that I don't get to see 'cause all my family does is fight. His voice has changed alot. It feels like I don't know him anymore. It isn't just his voice that has changed. It hurts beacuse I know much longer of not being able to spend that "quality cousin time" together and we won't even know eachother. Which is rather pathetic, I mean it isn't our fault that our parents can't be in the same goddamn room together and yet we suffer. It really isn't fiar but I guess life isn't fair. But, I just think about all the times growing up and I just wanna go back when things were simplier and my grandpa was still alive and I had a family. I mean sure I still have my dad's side of the family but I was never all that close to them. I mean, I didn't even stay the night with my grandma on my dad's side until I was at least 12. I didn't really even know her that I could remember until about 6 or 7. So, it isn't quite the same if you know what I mean. Larry, what a loser I don't think of him as a grandpa and it is so hard to explain to people what he is to me. I mean it sounds really wrong with I say "Now, this is my great uncle Larry. NO, not my grandpa, he is married to my grandma." One of the reasons for this fight is because Carleena is embarrassed of it. Well, I know what she means but they did it in the bible that is how it was supposed to be then. But, it is weird haveing your uncle married to your grandma. The other sad thing is his actual grandchildren don't know him. I mean the one that is about 8 was scared of him 'cause he had only seen him once in his life....OH, Timna his other grandchild she is really funny. She called me the other day. She is supposed to call me somtime this weekend and the calls should be free! I hope we get to stay more in touch...Anyways, now I am just rambleing and changing subject too often lolz I need to go to sleep I don't give a ******** what they try to do to me! Byes and leave some comments bitches!
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