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Today, was awesome! I had alot of fun! My mom usually goes to this thing where she scrap books with some friends. Anyways, I went with her 'cept this time we all dressed as clowns and went to the nursing home. (I will try to get pics if I can.) It was alot of fun. It gave us a all a great feeling to have brightend their day a little.
'cause I mean think about if you were in the nursing home? Wouldn't it be rather depressing? So, we thought that makeing them laugh or smile would do them some good. Anyways, after that we went to Tiffany's house and made props for Bible School. This years theme is gonna be Artic. So, I got to paint a moose! It was fun! LOL. Then my mom did one thing that PISSED ME OFF! She was like, "Cassie isn't gonna like me saying this but, we hae recently be talking about how kissing and makeing out can lead to other things. Do you all agree with me?" Well, they were like "Yea, yea in the heat of the moment you can't say, 'no' I have kids to prove it!" But, there heat of the moment and my heat of the moment are two totally different things. Considering the fact that they are married. To be honest I am scared to. I don't know why, I just am afraid. Which I am gonna let that fear control me in "The Heat of the Moment." I really, really didn't like that. One, it was embarassing. Two, I have heard the speach a MILLION times. Three, it makes me feel like she was telling other people that she was afraid I was gonna be a slut. Which I think that I am justified to feel that way! I mean come on she did basically tell a roomful of people that she was worried I was gonna go have sex. stare And that would get under anyones skin! Then, Traci insisted her friend came over so she did. I don't mind her friend. But, I respect that it is her friend and I leave them alone. Unlike Traci if I have a friend over she "Is to be included." As mom would say. But, I feel like, "Hey I don't like it when she does it to me why should I do it her. Maybe if I don't it to her maybe she will stop doing it to me." That is only a wish! Then the damn dog ran off. I circled the town like three times in the car didn't find him came back in the driveway and there he was! OH! When I was walking to go find the dog I looked on the cellar hill and I saw this thing and I thought, "Is that a turtle?" Then I thought "Nah, it is a piece of trash or somthing." Then as I got closer it turned out to be a snapping turtle. It had just rained so the turtle moved to higher ground. Then, the poor thing had to lay some eggs. So it layed eggs on our Cellar. I wonder how long it takes them to hatch. Oh, last night I layed down and I was just about asleep and I hear this horrific screach/scream and it scared the s**t OUTTA ME! I was like, "WTF is that!?!" Then I went into the kitchen and got a flashlight and went out ont he back poarch I didn't hear or see anything then. So I asked dad the next day and he said that it was a screech owl. I heard it again tonight I hate that damn thing! Oh, Joy (one of the ladies at the scrapbooking thing) started pointing out of the Cancer things in our area and she said that her husband called Jefferson City and asked what was up with it. Jeff City said, "You wouldn't wanna know even if we told ya." So, I thought that was kinda scarry. They are starting a petition to figure it out. 'Cause we have a right to know why our friends and family are dying or have died! I find it rediculous that they won't tell! It's like, "WTF!" Anyways, I found this cool website I wish I would have found it earlier I would have showed my mom and gave her my out look on life. She used to be more but she still is I think. She thinks I am Gothic and "Weird." Well, for those of you who don't know me in real life I am a Christian. So, I found this site, www.christiangoth.com it is about people like me who are Christians and wear the same kind of clothes and ya know are what the "normal/cool kids" would consider "Freakish." It also talks about how if the churches shun us they are acting like Christians and not Christ I mean what does it matter if we wear different clothes and have a differnet outlook as long as we believe that what is in the Bible is the truth! Me and Cheri were thinking about printing it out and reading it at Youth group. But I don't know if we will. They, won't listen. They never do. stare Maybe I should print off a bunch and send it to some people in my school. Considering they seem to think that I am Gothic and I worship the devil and I don't believe in God and whatnot. Damn, I must have had a long day eh? No actually I just have alot to say for some reason. I think if I type when I am tired I ramble and think of more things to say so that I can keep myself awake. Yesterday, I went to Sam's house for a few hours. She told me that she went to her cousin Amber's on Saturday and had a party. Well, she told me that she got really, really drunk. She didn't really sound like she even rememberd half of it. 'Cause she was like "And then we uh...It was really fun." I feel terrible I hope nothing bad happens to her. She hangs out with Amber she will be an Alcoholic, a drug attict, and a slut! I hope not though, but my friends, family, and everyone around us knew that, that was the path she was gonna take. She is too easily brought into things all you gotta do is tell her it is cool. And she will do it. I love Sam (As a friend Dakota) and all, but she can be a total idiot. She can be really funny and she don't care what other people think 'cept for Amber and Crystal (Crystal is Amber's sister Sam's other Cousin.) And Sam bsically says ******** the rest. I think if she had to choose me or Amber she would pick Amber and not just cause Amber is family but she thinks Amber likes her. Amber uses her, all Amber wants is to get her drunk a few times. Once the "thrill" or whatever of getting her drunk is over then Sam isn't gonna be her "friend" anymore. Sadly everyone around Sam can see that as well but she is completely blind. Sam is my best friend (one of my best friends) I would hate to see her hurt but I can't stop her and I can't tell her it is wrong either beacuse she would just "hate" me "forever" so I really don't know what to do. The thought of somthing happening to her scares me to death. A life without Sam would be one hardly worth living. crying Anyways, I better go to bed or I am gonna crash right here on the computer and I still have to put the Cell Phone up!