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Think of everything we build as a society. Morals, ethics, materialistic valuables, relationships, works of art, and things of the like. These things are built as best as they can by people who care about the future of mankind.

A father teaches his son to be a man of good morals
A teachers shows a student good ethics
An Englishman gives his workers nice things
A woman gives a man the love he deserves
A musician writes a hit for the listeners

And, EVERY GODDAMN DAY, someone destroys a piece of it. Something is taken for granted, trust is broken, wealth is taken away, love is lost. I don't mean just in society; I mean on a regular basis of everyone's life. A friend can say they appreciate your company, but in reality, they couldn't give any more of a damn about you than a pair of socks

Your parent can tell you they love you and blow you off for weeks without a phone call
Your peers and supporters can tell you you're doing everything wrong
Your lover can walk out on you in a single day
Your towers of loveliness that you come to find such joy in can fall apart in a day

I dislike it. I feel like so many things I try to tell people just don't matter. It's like I don't matter. The only that matters to anyone is themselves. That may or may not include me. I wouldn't know; I haven't seen myself through another's eyes. Every friend I've kept, every stride I've made, and everything I've done feels like it's worthless. I feel worthless. Sometimes, I wonder who would even notice if I dropped off the face of the planet for a week. Just gone missing. Would anyone want me back? Or would they rather me be gone indefinitely?

People have so much s**t shoved so far up their asses that they're blinded to the world around them. I can admit to that. I'm lazy and spoiled and kind of a d**k. Sometimes when people don't deserve it. Everyone's like that. But, nobody tries to change it

It's ******** dumb. I hate it. I find myself back in High School, wanting to strangle myself because everything I come into contact with is nothing more than a black void

On another note, it's a really close friend's birthday today. And, sadly, I can't do anything to make it brighter for him, which pisses me off because I'm preaching about how nobody does anything to help anyone else but I'm incapable of doing anything

We, as a people, need a wake-up call. ********, I never knew people could be this bad. We judge, we talk s**t, we ignore, we detest, and we (bluntly) don't care. I feel like I'm the only exception sometimes. I feel so distant. I feel unwanted. I feel like, in my attempts to be someone that gives everyone around him a good vibe, I just end up being another black void. Something that everyone wants nothing to do with



We can't build structures if we're separated, which is exactly what we are

Happy Birthday, buddy. Sorry I couldn't do anything spectacular for ya