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So, after dating for a month and 6 days, approximately, I got dumped. And, I'm not really pleased about it. Especially considering that I got called a "mistake" by someone who claimed they loved me. Kinda sucks. I think the worst was getting dumped over Skype after being demanded to break up with her in person, but that's as bad as it gets. I'm really not even that mad, just disappointed

I handled it badly and she and I aren't friends anymore. Then again, if I was such a mistake, I wouldn't wanna be friends with someone who makes bad decisions that hurt other people. But, like I said, I'm just kinda disappointed that it's over.

It's like jumping into a pool. You're down under for only so long before you come back up. She and I went about 3 feet out of 16, maybe? (That analogy made PERFECT SENSE, don't be ridiculous) So, my way of coping is finding comfort in spending time with friends that never have time to see me. Maybe there'll be the hot best friend of some new girl I meet in a park someday who's really nice and bright and fun.

Maybe.


Unlike with Brittany, this feeling isn't one of being abandoned and left, but more of that feeling like going on a road trip and then it gets cancelled abruptly because someone can't muster up the energy to get their s**t ready to go. And, that was her, in this case.

That would've been one ******** trip, though. I thought she and I had something special. Then again, same with Brittany and the... Ahem... OTHER girl. :3 It's a shame she hasn't forgiven me yet

So, that time I could've spent on a road trip is being spent at home where I've always been. It's boring. I need more people to communicate and spend time with. I need human contact and compassion. It's not like I live with people who actually love me, right?

Well, that girl's gonna do what she does: make decisions she wants to make. Maybe she's learned a lesson or two from me. Even though I didn't learn a thing from her...


Oh yeah
And Happy Independence Day
After all, who cares what I'm feeling, right?