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It seems my dreams have been trying to tell me something as well as nature.

Few days ago had a dream where these people in this store was talking about my destiny and past. Then an owl shows up here around my house, which owls never are around this area of town. Combining the owls meaning (which is wisdom and secrets of the night) with that dream it means about my past and something about my self. I did not see the owl but my aunt did which indicates that someone else will see this thing about my self before I do and point it out to me. It will also be a person I can trust.

The recent dream according to my analisis basically is about me and my past, going within my self to find the answers. Nothing so far has come up. However, I have also realized within the dream that it told me I dismissed something I shouldn't have. Dealing with love, because of my past hurts. I reconize this now...


The one thing I want is to be happy with one guy, and thats all just one. I constantly search for this one guy all the time when I do not have a boyfriend. I fall in love very easily and then afterwards I worry about if that person will leave because of my own imperfections to a relationship. I have talked it over with him and his word to his promise is very much believeable to me. I feel like I can trust him and he won't betray me like the others. He seems so nice and caring towards me.

I do love him very much so, its just that sometimes my fears get in the way cuz I don't want to scare people off. People tell me you can't be to clingy or protective cuz people get tired of it. How can you change something about your self like that? Its hard for me to so when I actually do it I get scared they will leave because of it. But then again maybe its just the fear of having that fear that scares them away. I just want to be happy with this guy and since trust is a big thing to me I feel that I can love him fully with out hesitation.

Hes different then the others, unlike many other people I have not been able to trust all the way. He has always been honest with me and so I feel that it can last forever.

What I want is to live a life with him in the long run. For me, a person like him means the world! And in all that I want to spend the rest of my life with him forever even beyond death!