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Dear Diary,

Today I counted on the calendar how many days until the guy I love moves 3 hours away. 63 days. I was working on my personal website and I made up some corny little poem thing:

Tears will fall and hearts will break
There's one thing I have to say
I love you in every way
but it doesn't matter
because you left today

I made a whole page with pictures about love. I thing thats confusing me the most is that I don't know if I love him or not. I've realized that every guy I thought I loved just TALKED to me! I'm not very pretty, my friends are there because they pitty me, and I'm fat. I think I thought i loved this guy because he talked to me. I thought that he had an interest in me. Now that he is leaving, my excuse to hang out with him is that he is leaving and I want to spend time with him.

I love him, I think. I don't really know anymore. I just want someone to love me!
~Kelly, the girl who might be in love