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Dear Diary,

I've been wearing make-up sort of dark lately. It makes me feel like i'm my own person! School is crazy like hell for me right now! I'm like totally failing math! Oh well, i dont really care that much! We are vsiiting a university on monday to do a whole bunch of workshops!!! cant wait for that! Have you ever felt in the middle of the day you wanna act like someone different?! i do all the time!i wanna act like im popluar, i wanna act like im pretty, i wanna act that im smart!! i think im a good actor, but when it comes to reality, i suck at everything!! i love the weekends because i can just sit at home and not worry about what people think of me!! i just sit and sleep or go on the internet or watch tv!!!! no one to bug me! no one to pressure me! and no one to tell me whats what!!!! too bad i only get 2 days of that a week! crying i feel so hidden during the weekends! oh well, its what i want! emo