I have no clue what my dreams are telling me... and I know no one will see this unless Jo is lingering over my shoulder reading it as I write it.
I keep having dreams with David in it and I just don't understand it.. It's nothing weird or romantic in anyway so I know it's not suggesting s**t like that..
It's just as if we were close, the way I want it.. I suppose. Like we're laughing and getting along.. or sometimes he'll be mean.. Once he just kinda.. stood there and looked at me when I needed his help desperately.
I guess.. part of me longs for David's approval.. to explain everything to him so he'll understand. Like I have some inner guilt lingering inside of me that I don't know how to handle. I want to be close to him but I don't know how cause I'm scared.
Mich told me he wasn't mad at me anymore.. so did Hanz.. but I guess after having him be mad at me.. I just.. My mind is convinced he's still mad..
I feel like a little kid desperately longing for their parent's approval.. but .. I don't think David wants to talk to me..
I'll never know cause he won't ever ******** read this.
Why would he care to?
He doesn't want to read anything about me..
Unless he's like Tyler and reads with me knowing...
*sigh*
Who ******** cares.. I don't seem to deserve to see the David in my dreams.. the one who smiled and treated me right.. like the one I had over when he was helping me pack.. whether or not he didn't do much... *sigh*
What happened to us?
I keep having dreams with David in it and I just don't understand it.. It's nothing weird or romantic in anyway so I know it's not suggesting s**t like that..
It's just as if we were close, the way I want it.. I suppose. Like we're laughing and getting along.. or sometimes he'll be mean.. Once he just kinda.. stood there and looked at me when I needed his help desperately.
I guess.. part of me longs for David's approval.. to explain everything to him so he'll understand. Like I have some inner guilt lingering inside of me that I don't know how to handle. I want to be close to him but I don't know how cause I'm scared.
Mich told me he wasn't mad at me anymore.. so did Hanz.. but I guess after having him be mad at me.. I just.. My mind is convinced he's still mad..
I feel like a little kid desperately longing for their parent's approval.. but .. I don't think David wants to talk to me..
I'll never know cause he won't ever ******** read this.
Why would he care to?
He doesn't want to read anything about me..
Unless he's like Tyler and reads with me knowing...
*sigh*
Who ******** cares.. I don't seem to deserve to see the David in my dreams.. the one who smiled and treated me right.. like the one I had over when he was helping me pack.. whether or not he didn't do much... *sigh*
What happened to us?
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I think he read the message, honest...
I mean, not this, but I know I saw a giant message from you on MySpace as he was reading it *was a tad sidetracked at the time*