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You ever come home from the airport, opnly to see your dads car still in the dsriveway from where he hasnt left for work, then run inside before anyone else to see if hes ok, only to see his dead lifeless body face down on the floor, run up to it and try and see if hes ok, and you recive no answer, hes not breathing, you scream for your mom and she comes in and checks his pulse while telling you to dial 911 you run grab your cell phone, only to return having her tell you hes dead, and dropping the phone,as theese words ring through you ears, then as your mom tells you to run outside and wake up your sleeping brother, and tell him his dads dead, then hear the tears of everyone, but be in such shock, you cant cry you just pant heavily, and when somone whos not family finally arrives, you end up crying infront of them? Then the police and ambulance arrive, they refuse to let me see my dads body cause im a child, they make me turn away as they carrie him on a stretcher out of there, then maybe 5 minutes after id returned hom and found my dad the ******** cops make me tell them what happened since im the one who found him, ******** off cops, my step dad who i loved more then anyone else just died, but no they have to ask then not wait till later, ******** him!!! Whats ironic, is my best kayaking buddy took me to the mall that night and I saw a movie, I was happy acting cheery, but i seldom have a nigth now where I dont see his lifeless body, where I dont hear my brothers crys, where i dont end up dreaming about my dad, and being pissed its just a dream.



and my dads death could have been prevented, the previous week his breathing had been off when he tried to sleep, so he called his heart doctor and his receptionist said to come in the next day and theyd work him in, well he went there, they couldnt fit him in an appointment so they asked him a simple series of questions, the recpetionist was very snappy with him, she told him to say yes or no, you cant say yes or no to everything b***h it doesnt work that way! finally she told him he had a cold and to go to the ER well he went to his regular doctor who also couldnt see him, so he went to the ER they told him hed have to wait, cause they didnt know what it was, well next day my mom called the heart doctors office and filed a complaint with his staff about their behavoir,she didnt yell or scream or cuss, she just complained saying it wasnt a cold, no chance in hell, then four days later, my dad got a call from his heart doctor who said he was firing him as a pateint, for being abusive to his staff,my dad didnt do a ficking thing, well that night he told me he was scared he was going to die, and he didnt have a heart doctor anymore. we got home, I went to sleep and we left to drop my big bro off at the airport, with his jappaneese girlfreind, they were going back to japan, and how i returned is written in the above paragraph.


I miss you alot dad. I love you, and hope to someday see you again. Im trying my best to make you proud!!!