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Mermaids
When I was little, I wanted nothing more then to be a mermaid. When ever I went swimming at the Wise center *college gym, with a pool* I'd beg my sister to play mermaids with me. Most adults looked at it as just a normal girlish *yes, I know, shocking, me, girly* , but a normal girlish game. They thought it was just me expressing my imagination, creativity, and boredom. They thought it was just a form of entertainment. They couldn't see the deep, passoinate buring desire to be a real mermaid. I never wanted the tail though. I looked at mermaids with such idolisation. No one knew, no one knows yet still. *well, other then you and previous readers.....XD* When I was younger, I didn't know why it was I loved them, I couldn't explain my desire. I didn't have names for the emotions that I felt towards mermaids, I didn't know that I was feeling that way. I see now, that it was always their freedom I loved. They didn't have to go anywhere, do what anyone said, they belonged to themselves. Also, the belonged to the sea. How I've always loved water. That's one thing others have been able to notice. How I live in the water, and how I thrive in the water. I can practically breathe in the water...but not really. That's what I wanted from mermaids, the ability to live in the water, and stay there forever. As I grew though, I repressed these feelings, not wanting to seem foolish. I recently read a book called the mermaid chair, by Sue Monk Kidd. I love her, she's an amazing author. What I love is that she's actually got me reading realistic fiction and enjoying it. *shocking, I know* Well, as I read that chair, many of my childish desires came back to me. I remembered what it felt like to fly through the water, my legs together in a pretend tail. I remembered how good it felt to dive beneath the surface, and open my eyes, and see a new wolrd of light and purity. I remembered how much I loved it all. I also learned new things about mermaids, that makes me want to be one all over again. They are shunned by god, as seductive demons, and yet are accepted by many as angels. They are beautiful, and graceful, and they belong to but three things, instead of the millions we belong to. They belong mostly to themselves of course, and the sea, and also, the sky. Mermaids have wings that are often not depicted in texts and pictures. They can fly in the realm above, and swim in the realm below. They can do as they please, and have what they want. I love mermaids so much, and I still wish to be one.
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