Is it the end, or the begining?
all summer, I feel like I've been slowly suffocating...
every breath I take is not enough...I can't live, it won't sustain
I feel like there's a gaint gaping hole in me
a missing part...
I don't understand it...
I'm the fixer, not the one in need of fixing
I'm the healer
not the one in need of healing...
I don't break...I'm happy, life is good for me
I'm even excited about school starting
everything is great...
so why can't I breath, or think
I feel like I'm slowly numbing, like I've been injected with novacain...
every step I take is a step in the wrong direction...and I'm just getting myself more lost and confused...
soon I'm going to collapse, and end up dead in myself....
I feel like I need to get out of my house
I say that the pain will pass
it always passes
just keep moving...
just go forward...
but I look back...I try to see what's solving it...
I try to fix it
I can't
I'm lost...
stuck here...can't go forward can't go back...
I leave the house randomly, go anywhere...try to get away from it all
I need to breath
what if the end of summer....is the end of my strength and endurance? my stamina? my life....
but what if it is the begining?
I KNOW what I want in life, I know what I'm going to do!
I have plans....
will I be able to keep going on ahead?
or do I need the pain to survive....
has my synical annalysis of the world led to this, or is this just a projection of my thoughts....
is it really true...
that we must suffer to survive?
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school will clear everything up for you! But watch out... it is going to defragment your brain again... -.-