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Day 1
wake up, put on AFI and start getting ready when i remember i have my pills now, makes me feel down thinking about them let alone taking them. but i have awash and shave, do my hair and get dressed. Hannah's comming voer later so i move some stuff, put some candals in my room, space tehm about, set up the steryo to have romantic music on it. then came into the front room, turned the computer on, while i was waiting for it to load i went to get my pills. Why am i scared of them? they are going to help me but i'm scared. it doens't make sense. I can't swallow pills etc Because when iwas young i Had so many throat infections it's left holes in my tounsles (SP) so pills etc get caught in them. so i open the capsule up and pour the contents into some sprite. After watching it for a few seconds, i take the glass, swirl it round and Start drinking the mixture, at first it's not that bad but then it starts to taste bad. I drink it all followed by another glass of water.. Urgh i hate the taste, who would have though Happiness could taste so bitter