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I'm hurting so bad right now. nothing is making me feel any better and the worst thing i deserve the pain but it hurts so bad, it feels like My hearts got bits of it missing, i hate myself so much and i am so sorry for hurting her. I hate this feeling i wish it woudl go away, but i deserve it. It shoudln't go away, it shoudl be even worse. i don't deserve to be loved be her or anyone. i don't deserve to be alive, but i have to be, i don't deserve to die either cos that woul be too easy on me. I Hate myself so much i wish i could change things. i would do anything to change things