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I want a normal life
Just like a newborn child
I am a lover hater
I am an initiator
You are an oversight
Don't try to compromise
I learn to love to hate it
I am not integrated

Just call my name
You'll be okay
Your scream is burning through my veins

Sooner or later
You gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw your life away
Driving me under
Leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw your life away

Your like an infantile
I knew it all the while
You sit and try to play me
Just like you see on TV
I am an oversight
Just like a parasite
Why am I so pathetic
I know you won't forget it

Just call my name
You'll be okay
Your scream is burning through my veins

Sooner or later
Your gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw my life away
Driving me under
Leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw my life away

Sooner or later
Your gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw our life away
Driving me under
Leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw our life away


Most of you know that monday I had some problems and I ended up doing something stupid...I drank almost half a bottle of nyquill, almost half a bottle of cough stuff , 6 sinus allergy pills, and a hydrocodone eek sweatdrop .....yeah I know I was really ******** up but when you loose all touch with reality stuff like that happens...when you have no one to bring you back from the never ending nightmares things just get worse...Yes I know that all my friends are worried about me and as of right now I am ok...yes just ok I don't feel anything but pain...I know it sounds weird but I don't have a mood.....People don't understand me as much as they try they don't and they never will because I'll never completley understand why I do all the s**t I do....*rubs head and sighs* Just please stop saying Oh I know what you're going through because you don't nor will you, I don't even know what all is going on in my head or in my tattered heart...so just stop... stressed



PostPosted by: Strawberry_one Sat Mar 12, 2005 @ 08:49am



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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 13, 2005 @ 04:37pm
Oh wow honey, I didnt know that any of that. I am glad that you didnt o-d on any of that meds. I wont tell you that I understand (because I dont), or anything along those lines but if you ever need some one to talk to, I am here. PM me or Email me, or send me a letter via the mail or what ever...I can lend you my ear. *huggles*


commentCommented on: Mon Mar 14, 2005 @ 04:30am
*huggles* Thanks Nightly hun...I didn't even know you read my journal lol thanks though...



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commentCommented on: Tue Mar 15, 2005 @ 06:33am
i wont coment on the second part because yea...

but as for the first part, kick a** song >.<


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