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Thoughts of a Darkened Mind
Warning : Extremely depressing. Keep away from small rodents.
Amidst Ash And Venom
I still feel that everyone hates me, even though I'm told otherwise. I just don't have anyone to be intimate with, and it makes me feel souless.....
I stare into space, thinking of my failed relationships and friendships. The people who do hate me, and those who say they love me, but actually torment my heart by twisting my feelings. I love many, not all in a romantic fashion, but some do interest my heart into believing them potential soulmates. Everyone is so bent on moving on with their own lives, but I don't care about mine. I just want to be there to give them a pleasurable experience. I like pleasing people, I don't care what I get as long as those I care for are happy. Why do they turn from me....
I feel empty, I'm almost at tears, I haven't even been hugged in like two days, and it's starting to make me.... suicidal.
Everytime my dad yells at me, each time my mom cries, every time my brother lashes me with verbal torture, every time I see her face, every time they look down on me.... It's enough to make a guy loose it, ya know?
I just want someone to help carry me....






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Evil Emo 666
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commentCommented on: Fri Feb 23, 2007 @ 02:01am
I'll give you a hug...Once I get back to school, of course.... sweatdrop


commentCommented on: Fri Feb 23, 2007 @ 02:21am
Yeah....
Most people are just avoiding me.
I'm getting lonely..... cry
Am I just that ********' ugly and weird?



Lord Farious
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Evil Emo 666
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commentCommented on: Fri Feb 23, 2007 @ 03:09am
No, but like I said, I'll hug you on Weds.


commentCommented on: Fri Feb 23, 2007 @ 10:48pm
heart Hola! Konnichiwa! Aloha! I don't hate you. I know you don't believe me, but it's true. *virtual hug* heart



~+Fake.Love+~
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Lord Farious
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commentCommented on: Sat Feb 24, 2007 @ 12:50am
I know you guys don't hate me.
I just do this to work it out of my system.
Plus I love being reminded that I'm loved!


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