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I feel like complete and utter s**t in a bag.

Why? Earl stopped e-mailing me, probably because he's engaged now. That makes me feel neglected. It's not like I'm hitting on him or anything, I just like talking to him.

Also, the guy I like has no idea I even exist. Last year when we were in art/music class together, he would always talk to me--even in the beginning of the year, when we were in guitar ensemble together. Then he got popular, and started hanging out with the popular guys. Now he won't even say hi to me.

Ski Club has been re-scheduled. That really sucks. I was looking forward to it so badly. And I was hoping to finally be able to snowboard with Giovanni on a few trails, because I'm getting decent. Now I'm sure I'll forget everything and have to start all over on the bunny slope. I remember when he told me he was going to teach me how to curve, or whatever it's called. My fat a** he will. He's been ignoring me for no reason. AGAIN.

and I spent another night crying myself to sleep and fighting to not throw up.

No guys like me, and the one that used to doesn't anymore because I'm such a b***h. That sure makes me feel shitty.

~Shelly