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“When you're taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?”
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manic depresion

Alternating moods of abnormal highs (mania) and lows (depression). Called bipolar disease because of the swings between these opposing poles in mood. A type of depressive disease. Not nearly as prevalent as other forms of depressive disorders. Sometimes the mood switches are dramatic and rapid, but most often they are gradual.
Sypmtoms
Increased energy, activity, and restlessness
Excessively ‘hoverly good, euphoric moodigh,’
Distractibility, can’t concentrate well
Racing thoughts and talking very fast
Jumping from one idea to another
Little sleep needed
Increased sexual drive

Extreme irritability
aggressive behavior

Lasting period of behavior that is different from usual
Lasting sad, anxious, or empty mood
Feelings of hopelessness or pessimism

Decreased energy, a feeling of fatigue or of being “slowed down”
Difficulty remembering
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness

Loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed, making decisions
Restlessness or irritability
Sleeping too much, or can’t sleep
Change in appetite and / or unintended weight loss or gain
Chronic pain or persistent bodily symptoms not caused by illness or injury
Thoughts of death or suicide / suicide attempts


Socail Phobia

Social anxiety is an experience of fear, apprehension or worry regarding social situations and being evaluated by others. People vary in how often they experience anxiety in this way or in which kinds of situations. Anxiety about public speaking, performance, or interviews is common. Social anxiety can be related to shyness. The experience is commonly described as having physiological components (e.g. sweating, blushing), cognitive/perceptual components (e.g. belief that one may be judged negatively; looking for signs of disapproval) and behavioral components (e.g. avoiding a situation).

Symptoms

shyness
avoiding public places
difficulty relating to others
negative outlook
possible panic attack

Avoidance Disorder
Avoidant personality disorder (sometimes abbreviated APD or AvPD), or anxious personality disorder, is a personality disorder characterised by a pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, and extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation. People with avoidant personality disorder often consider themselves to be socially inept or personally unappealing, and avoid social interaction for fear of being ridiculed, humiliated, or disliked. They typically present themselves as loners and report feeling a sense of alienation from society.

Symptoms
avoids occupational activities that involve significant interpersonal contact, because of fears of criticism, disapproval, or rejection
is unwilling to get involved with people unless certain of being liked
shows restraint within intimate relationships because of the fear of being shamed or ridiculed
is preoccupied with being criticized or rejected in social situations
is inhibited in new interpersonal situations because of feelings of inadequacy
views self as socially inept, personally unappealing, or inferior to others
is unusually reluctant to take personal risks or to engage in any new activities because they may prove embarrassing

yeah I'm ******** up I know but I have been doing my research in an attempt to figure out what is wrong with me and to make it better if you ahve any ideas or suggestions I would love to know. I hate being this way and would love to find a way to chage it. If anything on here strikes you as particulary close to the way I am please tell me...


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saveds
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commentCommented on: Mon Jan 15, 2007 @ 10:05pm
ur not as ******** up as the people who have ******** u up most likey including me sop srry


commentCommented on: Mon Jan 15, 2007 @ 10:58pm
NO!! Sure you make mistakes that end up hurting me but everytime you make cry there are twiceas many times that you've made me smile so don't be hard on yourself I love you squishy. heart heart heart Here see the icon... 3nodding

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GwenTheFallen
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