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Sunday

The nightmares started again. they were always the same hands reaching for her, she tried to run but never got away. she never saw the face of the man doing this, but she could feel his cold touch and his harsh breathing as he starts to get excited. she screams but no one ever hears her. she can remember wondering why god let this happen to her? what had she done to deserve this?
that day was so bad that she locked everything inside that dark part of her mind. she would never let anyone know what happened to her. she would never let anyone inside her mind. she grew cold to the world and everyone around her.


It had been 3 years and rain had not spoken a word. everyone around her passed her off as crazy. on and off for the passed 3 years she had been in an out of hospitals. the doctors all said the same things she's not crazy it's something more. try talking to her. it takes time with things like this. rain heated the world and everyone in it. the nightmares had gotten worst. all she done was looked out her window with this look of sadness in her eyes. this room had become her jail. she could say it had become her hell, but she did not believe in heaven or hell anymore. after everything she went through she did not believe in much of anything anymore. she hated hypercritics just as much as she hated church, but every sunday she was made to go. she sat in the front row with her mom, dad, and two older brothers. all she could think was how much she hated the preacher. why did he keep looking at her? she stands up and screams WHAT THE ******** DO YOU WANT? Rain! Sit Down An Shut Up. we'll talk about this when we get home.. her mother bit off every word. rain screams NO! im not going shut up. why want you understand there's something wrong with me? Why don't you care? rain baby sit down we'll talk about this when we get home. NO! your beloved man of god raped me..... there it's out. RAIN COME ON WE ARE LEAVING.


Later that day rain was put in a hospital out of town. no one said goodbye to her she was just left there like a stray dog. that was the breaking point, she finally learned she was really all alone. the loneliness begin to set in. she had never felt so alone. as she closed her eyes she went to that place in her mind where no one could hurt her anymore. she was a living zombie. she did not feel or care. she just laid in bed and looked at the wall. she could hear the voices of people talking but she did not know who they were. one voice said call her family they need to know her condition. im afraid she is gone. the only thing we can do for her now is be here for her. she has no family anymore. they want nothing to do with her now. poor doll. what happened to her? she was raped by the preacher. will she ever come back to the real world? i just don't know, i just don't know. with help maybe someday. but its gonna be a long road. even if she does come back to us she may never be the same agian. there's just no telling, only time and alot of love will tell us