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Forever in my dreams

I remember her like it was yesterday, the first time i saw her i felt like my heart was no longer mine. it was love at first sight in that very moment i knew my life would never be the same again. my dreams were full of her face.for the first time in my life i was happy. it's been so long but i can still remember the first time we talked. we done everything together, i felt like nothing could mess this up for me.

A few months later my world came crashing down. i can still feel the pain, sometimes i have to stop and just breath. it had been months and i could still see her face before i fell asleep an when i woke up everyday. i wondered what had happened to make her rip my heart out? had i done something wrong? she was like a drug that i could not get away from. soon the pain turned to anger, i turned my pain and anger to the world, but no one seemed to care. i screamed so loud i was sure god could hear me, but nothing happened. i started to wonder if there was a god. the pain and anger was to much to talk anymore. as i looked out my window i went to that place in my mind where i could be forever in my dreams with her.