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im here in my shorts trying hard not to be(lol)

your image may float across my conciousness
but i shy away killing your image with violence and rage.
i think to myself if i were to give up and give in to lust would it save me?
or would it case us all harm.
by looking at you and you at him and him at me
we are forever hurt becuse of where we are looking
and whoose looking at us.
i stop and indulge imagine the flesh of you near
caressing my skin
inducing pleasure and pain.
and i enjoy it for thats how iam
hurt always to look for the pain
the one thing that feel real
becuase love is an emotion and all these emotions are fake

i shudder from the thought
letting you in trying to have your way with me
its inconcievable
i dare not speak my thoughts
though this cuases the triangle to break into a 3 peiced line
and then it all falls apart.
if only i were dead then they would have been
and my deadness would not have effected them the way its doing now
for im a hollow soul with nothing important to me never caring for anyone
no true emotions for this reality
for it like emotions is fake