It's what happens when you know something is your fault and no one else is willing to blame you. My whole lifes been like that. I know that things are my fault they must be because I am nothing Ia m a worthless,stupid,ugly nobody. I try to change it I really do I study hard and deit and excersize but none of it helps I'm still nothing and it's still my fault. Everyone says "don't blame yourself" or "it's not your fault" but if it's not then who's fault is it? Why do i ahve to screw up everything that makes me happy? Why do I have to ******** destroy myself to make it better? How do i fix myself when no one is willing to help me? No one cares it seems exept a select few and I love those that bother to care but I don't think even they can help. I NEED a protecter, I NEED caregiver, I NEED help. PLease someone help me bet those things to be.....
Why did my savior have to turn out to be my destroyer?
Why can't anyhting good ever happen to me and stay?
What did I do to deserve this?
