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My Adventures In Wonderland

“When you're taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?”



Today was yet another day of heartache. There has not been a day in months where I have not broken down and started crying. I was abandoned by friends and by the one person I thoght would never hurt me. I trust to easily and it's my fault that I'm in so much pain. Everything is my fault people try to tell me to stop blaming myself but I know I should because I must have done something wrong to cause that pain. I don't know anymore I know it would be wise to try to stop trusting people but I can't because I am so afraid of being alone. I don't want to be alone again. It's like I'm drowning in my sorrow alll I can feel is sadness and pain. I thought I found the one person that could make it better but he turned out to be my persecuter not my savior. It hurts so bad and I wish I could make it stop hurting I don't want to be like this anymore I get so tired of crying. Will no one rescue me from this pain? Is anything I feel real? Will anyone ever love me?