There's something that's been bugging me for awhile, and I want to write it down.
Dani (my best friend) knows more about my GOBF than I do, and it sucks. What I also don't like is how she keeps saying: "Oh, your boyfriend is so cool." For one thing he's just an ONLINE boyfriend. For another thing, she shouldn't know. See, she has an online boyfriend that she talks to on Yahoo! messenger, and I don't talk to him, or get into their love life or ask him ten million question or flirt with him. I stay completely out of it. I don't even know Dave.
Antoher thing that's been bothering me is that she told Zeron to call me sexy and babe. So he did. It's not the part that he actually did it that pisses me off, it's that she told him to. Just because she her OBF calls her sexy and babe she thinks that Zeron has to do the exact same things, but he doesn't. And then she keeps going on about their first kiss and all the stuff he says to her. I NEVER tell her a D@MN thing that Zeron does with me because I think it might make her feel bad, so why the #3!! does she keep having to tell me? If I DID say things like that to her (and I kinda did once) I would say: "Well guess what? My boyfriend kisses me more than yours, and he LIKES me more than yours. I don't need my boyfriend to call me sexy or call me babe. (in an off note: Take THAT and shove it up your nose!)"
And I do WANT them to stop talking to each other, because he's MY GOBF, and not HERS. But I wouldn't actually do that, because then Zeron would think I'm a b*tch and Dani would hate me forever. And since she's the only friend I've got an will probably ever have I'd better not do that.
And I want to kill myself. But I don't want to tell anybody, because they'll make me go to some freak-@$$ therapist or something. And I WANT to kill myself, it doesn't mean I'm GOING to kill myself, I just wish I were dead.
And my finger hurts. xd I'ma go put a band-aid on it...
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