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This will probably be the only time I've ever wrote in this thing, and not be mad about something. Well lets see what I can come up with.

My life has changed drastically in the last three weeks. Some bad stuff, but lots of good stuff. It all started when my Ex-Girlfriend, Ashley Riddle, Dumped me. In the first week, I was in my own world. I wasn't really mentally right. I was crying profusely, and mourning the loss of the one I cared very deeply towards. I was very distraught, and almost fell into on-coming traffic once. At one point I was driving back home from my radio show gig, and I was crying so much, I had to pull over and have my parents come and get me. There were times I was very happy, but I'd still act crazy. But I was in grief mode, and thanks to my friends and family, I was able to rise above the occasion.

Now on to the good stuff! Ever since my break up, and after over coming the situation, I felt like a new man. Like I had a second chance. It really feels great. I've been able to turn in my homework on time, which was a very big problem. I can now do my homework without my parents telling me, along with other things my parents had to nag me about.

I started going back to the gym, and I've never had so much energy. Lifting weights, and burning calories on the treadmill. I've already lost some weight. I even went as far as going on a diet and watching what I eat. A lot of people already think I lost weight, and I think I did too. The funny part is I've gotten so into it, I started getting picky about what I eat and what I do. I thought I'd never get freaked out if I didn't exercise for a day.

I also did something bold, in my dictionary, and cut my hair pretty short. It's not a buzz cut or anything, but it's still short. It's nice having a little something different for a change, since I've had the same haircut since the seventh grade. A lot of people have liked my new look, and I think I might keep it for awhile. I've even got girls to turn and look, due to my new look.

When I was with Ashley, I was planning on going to Jr. College then to a regular college in the Los Angeles area, since we had plans on her moving in with me and going to college together. Since that's not happening, I decided to go all the way and try to get into Berklee School of Music, in Boston Massachusetts. I thought since I don't have a girlfriend to tie me down, I can now try my best to get into any school without getting guilty.

Even though I was very sad when Ashley left me, I think it might've been the healthiest thing that's happened to me. I mean I'm almost out of school, ready to hightail it to College, and being tied down to a relationship wouldn't be good. It'll be nice to go out with some other people till I really decide on a long term relationship. Another problem is Ashley is way too young. She hasn't really gotten into the mentality of being an adult yet, and I just can't waste my life waiting for her to finally get it. I've had many good times with her, that I will always cherish, but in the end, she got kinda weird and a bit cold towards me. It's sad really. She's having a really tough time in her life, and I wish her the best. I just kinda wished she'd take care of her problems better than she has.

I still love Ashley. She's a very dear friend to me, and is almost like family. My Parents, relatives, and friends all loved her too, even if they were just liking her for my sake, which I appreciate the fact that they're willing to put their judgments aside.

The thing that kept me going, and still keeps me going, is something my mom said. She told me that if Ashley and I were meant to be, then we'll get back together. It's comforting to know that there is someone out there for me, but I'll only get her in good time.

As they say, "patience is a virtue".