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Ugh I so am not in the mood for anything right now, I am just in such a crappy mood right now.
Freakin my brother destroyied our comp so Brein is spending so much time into repairing it!
I couldn't eat anything all day or nothing to drink either!
I get home and I just almost kicked the fireplace.
The run in Weight Training was a pain, it felt like sand got caught in my throat and I got in 2nd ><;;
I miss my gamecube, poor little thing is still dead crying <3
and I just can't focus right now. this is probably the first time in like 2 years I have been like this, I just hate everything right now. I really wanna cry aswell but just can't!
So many things I have done or know WILL happen just gives me more reason to cry so hard and I just can't do it crying
I just wanna lay in bed till its all over! Bring the Apocolypse! bring down Jesus and send me to hell for an Eternity for Torturing! Thats all I want right now, something to do or to thinking about!
But no, the only thing that has been on my mind all day is that one dream! I can't get it out of my head!
At school I almost fell off these tall a** bleachers and really didn't feel anything like adrenaline so *sigh* whatever!
Jeez I don't care right now! Everytime I have to listen to this one girl (my bro's friend) Obses over her bf it just makes me wanna come to school and kill every single couple I catch together! But then I realise , its not my place to tell people what they can and can't talk about, but geez.....whatever!
Like I give a crap about myself anymore, I think of myself as a play-thing, toy or sacrifice, heck if I heard anyone I knew went to hell them heck I would trade my soul so they can live happy and me in hell, or if someone was gunna die I would take their place, whatever....I don't care right now