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It feels just like yesterday that we met. I remember when I first saw you, and how I knew you were going to be mine someday. You were at a park sitting there peacefully on a bench with such a captivating smile. You had your phone in your hand texting someone, or at least it looked like you were. With the frequency that your fingers were pressing against the phone screen, that was the only conclusion I could come to. Your hair flowed flawlessly in the wind, and you were wearing a bright green shirt with khakis. Though it wasn't my favorite outfit on you, it definitely made you look beautiful. It was such a perfect sunny day out, and you fit so effortlessly into it's majesty.

I guess that is why I took your picture that day without you knowing. I was a bit hesitant, and I wanted to savor that beauty. That beautiful moment that I alone held. It was the perfect start to our secret relationship.

Which was fine for now cause I was still far too unprepared to approach you. You were without a doubt one of the most lovely and elegant people I have ever seen and there was no way I was going to ruin this by coming up to you before I was absolutely ready. So I waited patiently for the right moment.

About a month later I saw you again. You were sitting on that same park bench as you were that first day I encountered you. Except this time you were crying. I gazed upon your face and saw a steady stream of tears flow from your eyes. It was truly heartbreaking, and in that moment I knew it was the right time. I felt it in my entire being. I just knew I had to take this opportunity to introduce myself.

The sun was bright that day as well so I put on a pair of sunglasses to shield my eyes from it. As I approached, you noticed me instantly and tried hard to compose yourself. You looked so vulnerable, and I knew that with time I was going to make that pain go away.

I just smiled at you and said "I am so sorry to intrude on you, I was just passing through and I couldn't in good conscience keep walking without at least asking you if everything was okay" You looked up at me briefly and looked down almost immediately. You tried so hard to control your sobs and your tears, but it became more of a strain then you could bare and the tears started to flow again. You didn't speak at first so I just sat down beside you and spoke again "I know we have never met, and please feel free to tell me to go to hell if you want, but I can recognize signs of a broken heart when I see one. Please don't let me impose anymore then you are comfortable with, but it would mean a great deal to me if you told me what happened"

You looked back up at me, you looked lost and afraid, but you spoke anyway "My husband just left me today... He said he wanted a divorce... So I came here because this is the place that I find most relaxing. It helps me calm my nerves" with those words the tears resumed, and I reached out and just touched your shoulder for just a brief second, and spoke again "That is awful, I am so sorry, I know that nothing I could ever say could make things better, but I too know what it is like to be betrayed by a love one... Please give this number a call if you ever feel that you need someone to talk to, or if you need someone to just listen to you" with that I pulled out a pen and wrote down my number on a piece of paper I had in my pocket and handed it to you.

You stopped crying and looked at the piece of paper, then at me. In that instant I saw a small smile appear on your face again, which caused me to smile back. I couldn't believe how the brightness in your smile made the sun seem so dull and dim. You truly were a masterpiece caught in the clutches of space and time. You said to me softly "Thank you, I appreciate it, may I ask a favor?" my smile remained as I said "Of course, what is it?" you then looked down and said "I sort of been struggling to distract myself from this situation, would you happen to know anywhere I could go that may take my mind off of it?"

I looked back and said "Actually I do, if you would accompany me I can take you in to town and show you the place I go when times become less then fortunate" I remember you lit up as if I had told you I knew the secret to curing all your problems. You were mesmerizing. Without another word we walk together through the park and in that time I gazed upon you and it was as though you really did leave your problems behind at that bench. I was glad that I had relieved you from that pain temporarily.

I told you that the place I would take you wasn't located far, and that we could just walk there from here. You agreed, and I led the way into town. As we got there I led you to a bar which caused you to sort of tense up a bit, and explained that you have never been to a bar before. I could sense your reservations, and I promised that the drink I had for you wouldn't even really taste like alcohol. In fact I told you that you would love the taste immediately. It took some convincing, but you went in with me and sat down at the bar. I sat down beside you and told you to order something called an Irish Dr. Pepper. This drink was sublime, I could tell as soon as you tasted it that you loved it. In fact you loved it so much that you finished it off quickly and ordered another.

We talked for hours there at the bar and I could tell that you were quite drunk before too long. You were quite the wobbly and friendly drunk. It was very entertaining for me. Even when you were smashed you had a certain elegance about you. It was probably about midnight when you decided to call it a night and I walked with you out of the bar. You could barely stand so I helped you to your car which was located back at the park where you had originally arrived. I told you to just sit there as you were in no condition to drive. You adjusted yourself in the drivers seat and sat there for about an hour where we talked for a while. I like to think I got to know you pretty well that night, and it was probably one of my favorite nights so far. You then told me that you were able to drive as you had regained your ability to see and were functioning as close to normal as possible without being fully sober.

I recall asking if you were sure, to which you told me yes, so I agreed to let you go. We got on the road, and sure enough you were a great driver. Even though I knew you weren't fully sober you handled the road like a pro. Unfortunately though not everyone was as skilled behind the wheel as you, and within a few minutes another car collided with yours and with that a brutal accident followed. I looked over at you from the passenger seat after both vehicles had come to a stop. You were bloody and didn't move. I was lucky as it seemed my side was untouched and all I got from the accident was some minor whiplash. I then looked over at the other car. That gentleman driving that vehicle was in the same state you were except that his head was split wide open. It was eventually confirmed that he was drunk as well.

I then turned back to you and knew that I could save you. I would finally be able to help you as I had originally intended. I lifted you up from the wreckage, and brought you here. You never got to use that number I gave you, which is alright cause you don't need to now. I also still have that picture that I took of you which I will treasure forever, it really was an amazing one, and it is a shame that I won't get to see you like that again. It almost feels bittersweet.

Which brings me to why I am here with you today. You see, I know it can get lonely by yourself in this room, and after we are done here I think I am going to pay that other gentleman from that day a visit as well. You and him actually have something in common. I actually was able to save him from his pain as well. Though I must admit saving you was much more of a memorable experience for me, and for that I must thank you.

I digress, you see today is a special day. A day which I will never forget, and I am quite certain you won't either, and I wanted to be together with you again to celebrate it. For you see today is exactly one year that I lifted you from that wreckage and saved you from a life time of suffering, in exchange for an eternity of suffering, down here with me. Happy Deathday.