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Is a loosely used term nowadays, yes? It seems like it to me. I dunno, I just randomly thought of the fact that you hear, "I love you." a lot more often. Maybe I'm just being stupid. Oh well, it's late and I'm probably thinking stupidly. =)
School is boring. I just want it to be out. Ya know? I feel ignored. Last week my friend Jessica wasn't at school because she went on vacation. Anyway, my other two friends, Connor and Hillary, decided that they should start doing notes during reading period. They never let anyone read them, they fold up the top of the paper so no one can read them (I'm assuming). And today Jessica comes back, and when they finish the note they give it to her to read. =? Why the hell can't I read it? I don't even want to ask.
I haven't been walking with them to lunch as much anymore. Once or twice a week I just go to my locker and then to the cafeteria without them. They don't seem to care. Usually it goes like this.
1. We walk down a hallway and see Katy, our seventh grade friend.
2. We walk down another hallway and eventually come to Connor and Hillary's friends, and maybe Jessica's too. I dunno if they're Jessica's... But not mine. =?
3. Hillary steps aside to talk with them.
4. Jessica usually follows Hillary.
5. Connor goes ahead with Chelsey, our other friend who comes to meet us (Or more likely Connor) and they walk away.
6. I'm left basically alone, so I run up to Connor and Chelsey.
7. I'm ignored.
8. I walk ahead, right in front of them, walk past them a few minutes later.
9. Completely ignored.
I swear, I should walk with them tomorrow with this in mind and see if I'm right or being an idiot. I don't like being ignored... I don't like being left out.
Last week Hillary and Connor were doing these weird talk with each other things. "Ditching me without ditching me" was what Connor called it one day. He told me to stay with Christine and Alisa and they'd be right back. Screw that, is basically what I thought and went to find Kerra and Jessica (Other Jessica).
One day I heard them talking at the lunch table. Basically only Connor though.
"My friends know about it... Her friends know about it.. It's weird, ya know?" is something like what he said. I'm obviously not his friend, because I have no idea what he was talking about.
One day in the lunch line, he started flirting I guess with a girl. Yelling across a short distance to her. And... They said something, and it eventually came to me figuring out that he liked her. I'm guessing Hillary knew. That's probably what they'd been talking about. I asked him and he said, "I'll tell you later." and later (than I would have hoped) I asked him again, and he said yes I think.
He can't talk to Chelsey about whatever it is, because she would laugh at him for some reason. But he can talk to Hillary about whatever it is. And probably Jessica. And probably every other freaking person in the world. But me.
 Arancia · Tue May 23, 2006 @ 07:27am · 2 Comments |
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