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delighted
okay so i thought my life was bad before but technically at the moment im kicked out and homeless....im sitting at my moms and its 730 in the morning and i dont know how im getting to school tomorrow. i got into a major all out brawl, fists flying fight. and i think i dislocated my pinkie and i have a big a** bump on my head from having my head smashed but i think i came out the victor anyways so as they say no pain no gain, or in my case, no pain or no win.its wierd to me how crazy i get when someone hits me, i kinda block it out and got nuts on their a**. but if i would have been smart i woulda let em kick my a** and kept my mouth shut. but no not me, gotta go all psycho crazy b***h and fight back until i got everyone jumping on me and my brother choking me and still im throwing punches and not giving a s**t. they never got me out the car, but now im kicked out and i dont know what to do and id cry if i thought it would do any good but it wont and i packed up all my stuff at least all my important stuff, like stories and poems i had writtten and i left everything else behind. so i came online hoping to forget but the throbbing in my head wont go away and the more i type the more my hand hurts and it just keeps reminding me how screwed up my life is and how i wish things were different but wishing never does any good and frankly im just tired. oh and i have a bf who wont talk to me, or sit by me or anything but he tells everyone he cares for me so much and i think thats just bullshit because if he cares he should show it instead of ignoring me. i hate that. and then there is matt, who keeps telling people he wants me and blah blah blah. but as much as i sort of like him theres no way i can go near him. because all i heard from him for the last couple months is how bad he wants my sister but she wont have him cause shes knocked up by his cousin. well i wont be second best theres just no way. id always feel like i was just her replacement and i cant do that. im no ones replacement, im no ones second best. i am me, and if you cant just like that stay away. ya know? okay well i better go before i really start ranting and drive myself up a wall. peace out you rightous fools.
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